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"Everybody has that point in their life where you hit a crossroads and you've had a bunch of bad days and there's different ways you can deal with it and the way I dealt with it was I just turned completely to music." -- Taylor Swift
happy april fools' day
I'm seriously kidding myself by being here to blog when I'm supposed to do things which are more important and crucial. Firstly, there's literature assignment to be done. Secondly, there's economics test on next Monday and I'm probably doomed for it. I'm digging my own grave seriously.
Today marks the start of April and it is a hectic month for the SYF team. I looked at the monthly schedule and it freaks me out. We've started having four practices per week, consecutively. I guess our voices would soon die out and I'm being real honest here. Not that I dislike my choir or anything, but consecutive practices are not effective. It would only drain our energies and with that, it's enough to create adverse effects. Sadly, none of these thoughts would be heard and even if they are, nothing would be done. Our choir just need lots of practices. Gold with Honours? I'm not quite convinced with that goal, but I'm gonna do my best for SYF and astound myself. :D
Anyway, my life doesn't only revolve around choir, choir and choir. There's still school. (obviously) I've been failing tests and I'm disappointed. But this is not gonna get me in any way. I know that I've not put in enough effort and I obviously haven't done my best for them. Lesson noted and learned. And let's move on with life then. I shan't keep talking about it.
To be honest, I still feel like a wallflower in my class. At least in choir, I'm being accepted for who I am and there are people who understand me. But that's not the case in class. It's really sad, honestly. I keep getting the feeling that people are allowed to ignore me but I'm not allowed to do so to them. People think that I'm anti-social and a hindrance to them. I feel sorry for that, but no, I'm not gonna change for that. My closest friends have accepted me for that and why must I change? At this point of time, you might feel that I'm being very unreasonable and headstrong but let me tell you this: I've been putting up with a lot of crap in school and I'm sick and tired of all these. People being arrogant, attention-seeking, coming to you only when they need your help and complaining non-stop. Seriously, why is there a vast difference in my previous school and current college? I know I should be more open-minded and accept others for who they are, and this is too much. Way too much. I have a high tolerance level but this doesn't mean that people should abuse it. What rights do they have to do so? These are the people who make me so sick and tired of school. But besides that, I'm totally fine with the stress that I'm facing. Totally fine.
Sigh, I probably understand why I've come here instead of doing lit or studying for econs test. I seriously need a place or someone to speak to about all these things without being judged or criticised. Obviously no one would truly understand and I bet after reading this post, some might be cursing me in their hearts. But you know what? I don't care because that's how I feel and I'm not gonna hide them and be a hypocrite. Never will I do that.
I honestly feel better after saying all these things and I'm gonna find my motivation to move forward with life again. :) It seriously helps! I know I'm very long-winded when it comes to blog posts, but those are my true feelings about everything I'm facing and there's nothing to hide. :) So as usual, here's a nice picture for everyone before signing off~ :D
Today marks the start of April and it is a hectic month for the SYF team. I looked at the monthly schedule and it freaks me out. We've started having four practices per week, consecutively. I guess our voices would soon die out and I'm being real honest here. Not that I dislike my choir or anything, but consecutive practices are not effective. It would only drain our energies and with that, it's enough to create adverse effects. Sadly, none of these thoughts would be heard and even if they are, nothing would be done. Our choir just need lots of practices. Gold with Honours? I'm not quite convinced with that goal, but I'm gonna do my best for SYF and astound myself. :D
Anyway, my life doesn't only revolve around choir, choir and choir. There's still school. (obviously) I've been failing tests and I'm disappointed. But this is not gonna get me in any way. I know that I've not put in enough effort and I obviously haven't done my best for them. Lesson noted and learned. And let's move on with life then. I shan't keep talking about it.
To be honest, I still feel like a wallflower in my class. At least in choir, I'm being accepted for who I am and there are people who understand me. But that's not the case in class. It's really sad, honestly. I keep getting the feeling that people are allowed to ignore me but I'm not allowed to do so to them. People think that I'm anti-social and a hindrance to them. I feel sorry for that, but no, I'm not gonna change for that. My closest friends have accepted me for that and why must I change? At this point of time, you might feel that I'm being very unreasonable and headstrong but let me tell you this: I've been putting up with a lot of crap in school and I'm sick and tired of all these. People being arrogant, attention-seeking, coming to you only when they need your help and complaining non-stop. Seriously, why is there a vast difference in my previous school and current college? I know I should be more open-minded and accept others for who they are, and this is too much. Way too much. I have a high tolerance level but this doesn't mean that people should abuse it. What rights do they have to do so? These are the people who make me so sick and tired of school. But besides that, I'm totally fine with the stress that I'm facing. Totally fine.
Sigh, I probably understand why I've come here instead of doing lit or studying for econs test. I seriously need a place or someone to speak to about all these things without being judged or criticised. Obviously no one would truly understand and I bet after reading this post, some might be cursing me in their hearts. But you know what? I don't care because that's how I feel and I'm not gonna hide them and be a hypocrite. Never will I do that.
I honestly feel better after saying all these things and I'm gonna find my motivation to move forward with life again. :) It seriously helps! I know I'm very long-winded when it comes to blog posts, but those are my true feelings about everything I'm facing and there's nothing to hide. :) So as usual, here's a nice picture for everyone before signing off~ :D
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