Hello people! I'm not actually supposed to be here but I guess I just have too take a few minutes to come here and post something. Many things have been happening these few weeks and well, there are a lot of work to be done too. :( But this is only the start of JC-life, I know, I clearly know that. Things have been going smoothly, but I'd still meet people who pisses me off like mad. I know I shouldn't be so sensitive about the people around me, but sometimes, I just can't help noticing people who are doing things I really dislike and naming them my "favourites". I should stop talking about this as it really kills my mood and well, I shall just move on to the happier stuff that has been happening.
I just came back from choir camp yesterday and it was a blast. I had nice group leaders, to be honest. Everything was okay, and everyone had fun. I know saying this is not very nice, but I feel inferior there. I mean, it seems like everyone has formed their cliques and I would be ignored so often by others that I felt so useless and gave up eventually. I swear that even before the camp started, I was very positive about things, wanting to make new friends from there and communicate with people from there. But many things proved me wrong. I gave up on the first night. I gave up cos' there was nothing I could do to make myself feel less inferior. I can't actually tell this to anyone cos' they'd think that I'm being extremely sensitive again and all those. But I'm saying this from the bottom of my heart, I'm not. I don't know why I feel this way. I apologise if my face is too threatening to anyone, but I'm trying my best to change this. I really don't know if I can hold on to this for another year or so. I don't know. Another thing I have to confess is that I can't help but to compare MJCHOIR to DMNCHOIR. I know comparing is not healthy and definitely not encouraged to do so, but I can't help doing that. I'm actually prepared to be confronted by anyone since I've decided to say all these here. But at least I'm being honest. Even though all these might seem a little too pessimistic, I still have to say that it takes time for things to take their shapes. I'm not discriminating MJCHOIR in any way, but it takes times for me to accept it the way it is. It takes time for everything, I guess. So I do have expectation for MJCHOIR after all.
I guess it's rather ironic that I said that I should talk about something else which would be happier at the end of paragraph one but end up talking about something pessimistic in paragragh two. But it's okay, what's done is done and I'm not gonna change it anyway. So I've had enough of rambling and well, today is after all yours truly's birthday, haha. Let's talk about something which is
really worth to be happy for. :) And that is... my dad got me a Macbook Pro! (for birthday I guess, cos' I wouldn't ask for anything more) Some might think that this is a stupid thing to be happy for, but let me tell you something: this is my second 2011 resolution that I have accomplished! (first for being in MJ) Oh, and talking about resolutions, I think the resolution of being in MJ is a little distorted as if you were to refer to that post talking about itm I've mentioned that I would join the photography club for sure. But well, guess what? I'm back in choir and... yeah, there are reasons for it but I guess it wouldn't be appropriate to mention them here. Guess I'll just have to wait for the right time to say them. :) So anyway, I'm back in choir and hopefully, things would change. And I would get into SYF. And blah blah blah.
So... I'm gonna be out later with UCP to have buffet! It's the first time celebrating birthday with friends, or rather UCP on the day itself and I'm rather excited for it. Please don't say that I'm heartless for leaving my family at home while I enjoy myself cos' it's not true alright! My parents would be having a performance and well, I guess they might be having dinner outside and all those. Furthermore, they were the ones who said that they wouldn't be able to celebrate this year's birthday with me, but I guess it's okay. I'm seventeen! (no longer seven or whatsoever, so I understand) So anyway, I actually can't believe that I'm already seventeen. :O And time passes even faster when you're having lots of things to do! It's kinda hectic actually, but it's time for me to get used to all these!
I guess that's all for today and see you guys next time! :D
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