Well, the title explains it all and yeah, I'm going to MJ. :D I was actually thinking about how to get to NYJ yesterday before I slept as I had a feeling that I'd be going there. But it turned out otherwise, which I'm really glad. And UCP girls are united as we're going to the same school. :) The rest of them are opting for Science stream while I prefer the Arts. Well, I wouldn't say that I'm an artistic person, but I'm way better in Literature than Sciences. I kinda regret taking pure sciences for the past two years tho', but it's pointless regretting it now, since I've graduated from there. :) I shall just move on with life and think about the next step. I just browsed facebook and realise how I might be isolated in the new school. I mean, there's hardly anyone taking the Arts stream and those who'd be taking are sadly, not close to me at all. But to truthfully think about this, it might be good as I would then be able to focus more on academics rather than any other stuff which might bother me. :) I'd still hang out with UCP and Veggies tho', cos they're my friends for life! Tho' all of them have their own group friends, I would still be there for any one of them if they need help. :) Just like how they were there for me when I needed them.
School's officially starting tomorrow and hopefully I'd adapt to this new environment as soon as possible. I would only be spending two years here and time really flies! In no time, t'd be 2012 and hopefully, I'd be in J2. Well, hopefully is the word. But of cos, what's the pointing of saying it when no action is carried out? I would give it my best shot in everything I promise, tho' I know it's not as easy as it's said and my close friends are describing college as 'hell'. But I guess I'm prepared. I've rested enough and it's time to explore the next chapter of my life. I was just looking through my post on 1st Jan 2011 and I realised that I've accomplished one of my new year's resolutions of getting into MJ! Haha, that seriously makes me happy and it gives me the motivation to work even harder while studying there. I honestly think that motivation is very important. Yes, this is what we always hear from people around us and it gets boring over some time, but trust me, it's true. Without motivation, how are we supposed to push ourselves forward without stopping so frequently? Ttruth be told, we're humans and we always need some rest after a long and tiring journey. However, after resting, we have to find ourselves new motivations to keep us moving forward, and it would definitely be better if we're moving at a faster pace than before. Having said all these, I have a plan that suddenly pops up in my head and I guess, I should just carry it out. :) From today onwards, I would carry post-its and my schedule book around. Hopefully, after each lecture or tutorial, I would have the time to quickly jot down what I've learnt and review them eventually at the end of the day. :) Haha, it sounds simple, but do you really think it is? I don't actually think so but there's no harm giving it a try.
My mind is actually blank now and I don't know what else to say here. How am I feeling about going to a new school tomorrow? Well, I'm having mixed feelings about it. Probably excitement, fear, anxiousness, curiousness, and whatever you can think of to suit my feelings. I have to admit that there's something that's mind-bothering for me and that is the hope to make new friends. I know, I know how intimidating I've always looked. I've always been trying to change that but I guess I still need time. I don't really like the feeling of putting on a fake smile when I'm not feeling happy. I don't want people to have a false impression of me. But at the same time, I don't want people to be afraid of me and fun away from me. It just bothers me. But I guess the best thing to do is to not think about it and be myself. I should just be excited for school tomorrow and put on a genuine smile. :) Anyway, I'm gonna see lots of familiar faces tomorrow and it's just gonna be a school day filled with surprises, haha.
I guess that's all for me today and I'm probably gonna sing some songs, forget there's school tomorrow until my mum wakes me up and be a happy happy kid. :D Adiós!

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Yes, we collected the results yesterday and I got an L1R5 of 11. Mediocre result, but it was kinda expected. I can't say I'm sad, but I'm not that happy either. Congratulations to all who have done well and keep up the good work! For those who didn't do ask well as you've expected, it's alright. (Perhaps I'm in no position to say this, but trust me, it's definitely not the end of the world, remember? It's in 2012! Nah, definitely not a believer of it) But anyway, no matter what result you get, where you go, or who you're with, do not slow down your pace of life. In fact, we should all take bigger steps in life and move on with it. There's nothing to fear about failures in life, they just make us even stronger than before. We can choose to grieve about them, but isn't it better to learn our lessons, know our mistakes and move on with life as a stronger person? Here's hoping that everyone (no matter who you are, no matter if I like you or dislike you, no matter how well you fared for Os) would get into their desired schools and no matter where you guys go, be happy with it as what's in store would be better as God is always with us. :) I have no idea when I've begun to talk about God, but as a Buddhist, we believe there's such a thing as blessing from God. And I'm really lucky to have been one of them.
I know I shouldn't be talking about grades and all those stuff, but I really wanna share with you guys the joy that I felt! I've actually got an A2 for Chemistry! Alright, it might be nothing to you but to me, it's like everything. (hyperbole, but oh whatever) I've been failing it since Secondary Three and I've never passed any one of the exams or tests on this subject. Yeah, that's really sad. Even when studying for it, I've been telling myself no to expect anything better than a grade C as I would be more than happy to actually pass it. But miracles do happen, and of course, I studied hard for it. For your information, I'm not a "chemically-inclined" person and therefore while others can remember the content as well as a nursery rhyme, I had to spend more time and effort and do hardcore memorising so that I can regurgitate the content in the exam hall. That's how difficult it is for me to study Chemistry. And of course, there are more content-based subjects which I had to memorise and it wasn't easy for me. So anyway, it was really a blessing for me to get an A2 for Chemistry and it's really unexpected. :) And another subject that I'm really happy for is Literature in English. Well, I haven't been doing as bad as Chemistry as for it but for the two years studying it, I haven't got an A. My results for Literature were mediocre and well, sometimes even a fail in some essays. But I've got an A1 for it! It's God's blessing again and, we must also thank Ms Angelina Tang, our Literature teacher who helped us a lot. (even though some of us thought that some lessons were rather ridiculous, hehe)
So anyway, I'm finished with sharing my joy and yes, the results were really unexpected. I didn't really dare or bother to ask anyone except for my close friends about their results as I'm afraid that they would lead to awkward situations. Fortunately all my friends did well and none of them needed comforting! :D Gladness. But I've heard some of the sad cases whereby outstanding students had unexpected results. I just hope they would pull themselves up and stand up again. After all, it's part of life and yes, life still goes on no matter what happens.
Alrght, I should just stop talking about results since I'm neither here nor there, happy nor sad. Okay, but I'm sure that I would be happy to get into MJC. I've browsed their school's photography club website and it looks awesomely cool! They even went to Perth in 2007! I hope I do have a chance to join them if there should be another overseas trip! :D The club looks so interesting and I totally love their photos. However, I still have to consider about choir after what Ms Yeo have told me cos' that's where I "shine" in. Well, I don't really know what to say, but to be honest, my passion for singing in choir is sadly, not as strong as before. Perhaps I can only get the joy of singing in Dmnchoir as I find it hard to adapt to different teaching methods, especially in the area of singing. Furthermore, I don't really like the politics problems there. Yes, indeed, like what Ms Yeo have said, I can just mind my own business, but the thing is, I'm not living in my own world and after all, I still care about people around me. (and I can be quite busybody sometimes) *Sigh* Why am I wavering at this time? I guess it's time for me to think about it so that I wouldn't do anything that would make me regret.
Currently, we still have to wait till the 26th to know the results and well, I'm praying hard that MJ would accept me or I'd have to travel very far from home! Gah, I guess I can only leave it up to God. Whatever He has in store for it, they'll definitely be the best and I would be appreciative. :) Going off now so see you guys next time! Adiós!

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It's finally 2011. What have you guys been doing for the first day of new year? I guess everyone's partying like there's no tomorrow. But that's not the case for me. It was an ordinary day. But there's nothing bad or wrong with leading a day that's ordinary, ain't it? In fact, my days wouldn't be ordinary once I step into the new school, regardless of where I would be going. I've actually been thinking a lot, and I realise that I have been quite foolish and immature in front of my family and friends. After all, I'm still someone with awful mood swings and people around me have to withstand those. I feel terribly sorry for that but I would change for the better in the year of 2011.
Anyway, as I've mentioned yesterday, I'm back here to share my New Year resolutions and this year, there wouldn't be twelve of them. (as far as I could remember, I think I made twelve of them last year and eventually, less than half of them were accomplished) I shall be more realistic this year and be less materialistic. (of course) I'm not really sure how to start with this but oh well, I shall just number them and do some elaboration on them. (in no order of importance as I just jot down whatever comes to my mind)
1) To have a smooth-sailing year ahead for my family
Well, the end of 2010 wasn't really good. I shan't spend time talking about unhappy stuff but I just hope that my dad gets his job soon. Though my sister and I were not really stressed because of financial issues, I can really feel how helpless my mum and dad were. To think that they'd rather sacrifice what they have to bring us happiness, it brings tears to my eyes. Seriously, which parents don't do that? They are after all those who brought us into this world and the ones who gave us everything they have. Without them, I'm positive that we'd be nothing. Thanks dad and mum for everything for the past 16 years and I hope that 2011 would be a way better year than 2010. :)
2) To get into MJC
Honestly, I'm leaving everything to God cos' there's nothing I can do to change my results or whatsoever. However, even if I don't get into this school, I wouldn't blame anyone even though it wouldn't stop me from feeling disappointed. Hopefully I would get in there and join the photography club as it sounds rather cool and I would like to pick up something new. I hope to get in there as it seems like a second Dunman. Many regard this as boring and whatsoever but it's not the case for me. I'm more than happy actually to be studying in another school just like Dunman. Furthermore, I have my lovely seniors there. :) Alright, this sounds really cheesy, but it's true. And if I get in there, I would definitely pick the Arts stream as obviously, I'm more suited for Arts than Sciences. Probably taking Math as a contrasting subject too. :)
3) Get a Macbook
Alright, let's be clear about this. It's not like I'm using a lappy now because I don't have one, as I only own a desktop and I really want a lappy badly. It's not because I want whatever people has but I think it would be of great convenience if I have a lappy instead. However, I might not get it as soon as my dad stll hasn't got his job confirmed. Well, I hope it gets confirmed soon so that we're able to have a joyful CNY. By the way, I can't wait for it to come! But I know my parents don't really like it as financial issues would be brought up again. :/ Nevertheless, I hope my family would have a happy CNY.
4) To lose some weight
Seriously, I hate talking about this issue but I just have to lose some weight. Not as if I'm some anorexic model but I guess everyone wants to look better and be healthier. There's nothing wrong to be fit unless it's to an extent that one is anorexic. I do admit that I love food though, (who doesn't?) but I would try my best to cut down on my diet but at the same time, eat healthily. :)
5) To make new friends
Guess people would be thinking that this is extremely funny as this is one of the easiest things on earth. But it's not for me, especially in a new environment. I'm a rather anti-social people and I don't trust people easily. It's hard to be my friend cos' I judge people secretly. (not by their looks of cos) Yeah, I do, as after all, I'm still a human. I have certain kind of people whom I dislike and I hope that they would have minimal contact with me this year, no matter who they are. And yes, they are the hypocrites. Seriously speaking, these people are worse than haters. At least haters have the guts (?!) to insult you in your face. At least they do not hide their real feelings about one. At least they're still trustworthy after all. But what about hypocrites? I think they're trash. Yes, I do agree that some emotions and comments are meant to be hidden as they're better not to be disclosed. However, hypocrites hide all their emotions and comments, especially negative ones and back-stab people. I hate these people, especially those who betray their friend's trust. And yes, I have encountered one and apparently that person is still being regarded as the angel in others' eyes. Alright, I guess I shouldn't spend time and space rambling about how much I hate hypocrites but back to topic, I would really wanna make new friends, and hopefully nice ones that trust me and are trustworthy. I think trust is one of the most important elements in friendship. And well, to be honest, I'm not really trusted by whoever out there, apparently. But fortunately, I know my family trust me. :)
6) To stay in good contact with people whom I cherish a lot (since we're leaving Dunman, or have already left)
I wouldn't wanna list all of them here as I've met a lot of people who've helped me in one way or another, but I just hope to keep in good contact with them. Thankfully, I'm still in contact with the Veggies after one year and I still love them like I used to! Really hope to meet up soon when they're all free as I've missed the last one, aw. Anyway, special mention for my next group of friends, the UCP. They're great too. And I don't know why, I also have to mention this person as I've had one of the best times in Dunman because of her, and she's AunnNing. :) Well, she's real smart and leaving for RJ but I really hope to keep in contact with her! :D
I guess my New Year resolutions would end here or I'll think of other impractical resolutions that I wouldn't keep to. Those that have been mentioned are quite realistic, I guess, and hopefully, on the 31st of December in 2011, I'd look back at this post, realising that all my resolutions would have already been accomplished! :) I'm feeling excited as I talk about it and hopefully, I repeat, hopefully they would all come true. Of course, without the lack of determination and discipline! :D

2011, here I come!
"Whatever you did in 2010 it has already happened. You have learned, and make 2011 better than 2010."
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