Such a random title. But who cares? Everyone is too busy to care. Actually, I don't know why I'm blogging here, when I'm supposed to like, do proposal, or at least go through the scores before sectionals start tomorrow. Just finished Bowling comp. posters, and well, not really nice though. But I really can't think of anything to add to it. Today is a tiring day. And so will tomorrow be. :/ This is though man.
1) LTC Trainers' Camp was rather expected. It didn't really turn out well. I mean,
I didn't really do well. FYI, I never say that I didn't enjoy or whatever, cos I know that this is a camp and it is supposed to be though. I failed to do
something, and that it clearly proved that my reaction time is 3secs while others' are 0.3secs.
I totally hate my slow reaction time. It's... stupid, foolish, or whatever. I really don't know what to say. It sucks to be like this. I'm dumb, I'm blur, I admit. I bet many people are very unhappy of me. I think it's cos of my face (wth), my actions and reaction. Damn it. I hate this totally. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone, I'm really sorry. I hate to do this to. But this is me, and I can't change. If I can, I'll probably choose to be like Ricky. (?!) I mean, his actions, his words, his, ... kindness. I've got to learn to be kind to others. (I'm just wondering, when am I not kind to others? I just appear to be unfriendly, that's all. I have no evil intentions or whatever) I just feel, depressed. And to add on, I've got millions of mosquitoes bites. (just exaggerating) I have lots of them, that I look as if I have chicken pox.
2) I don't know why, but God just seem to be playing with me. He knows that I'm feeling bad enough and well, continues to add on to the troubles I already had. Mid-Year was devastating. I failed english, like wow. Even though I'm quite happy with lit, both sections with 17/25, it still doesn't heal the wound. I scored A2 for Chinese, with 38/40 for oral, surprisingly.
I failed english.3) That's not the worst. I've got a feeling that everyone is running away from me. I don't know why, I don't know the reason, but everyone is running away from me. I can't take it anymore, I'm too tired. Nobody seem to be there when I needed them the most. Especially this person, who's obviously angry with me, or something worse. I can't do anything as I don't know what I've done wrong. I'm just going to keep quiet and wait for everything to settle down. God is seriously playing with me. Media Player is on the 'shuffle' mode, and it's playing all sad songs that make me think of the sad things. What's happening to me?
4) I finally understand why I named this post this title. My life is just like rotten banana, with everyone stepping on it, and nobody bothers to pick it up and at least throw it away, as it disgusts people. Am I like this? I really don't know.
5) I have a sudden feeling of not going for the Prague Trip in December. I don't know what to do. If I don't go, I'll disappoint quite a lot of people. And I think Doreen is probably not going cos HS is not. Well, I'll have to accept life. I mean, my life. It's just like this. I'll have to accept it.
6) Being in sop two makes me feel... uncomfortable. I don't know what to do. I really hope that Mr Toh won't kill us tomorrow. I really hope that Soprano can really memorize their scores and help us, at least. I would really appreciate it if they all go to the sectionals tomorrow. I won't give a damn really, if they don't want to go. I'll just slap them. (just kidding)
7) I feel that if I don't stop this anymore, I'm probably going to go crazy. Maybe I shall think of the brighter side: choir tomorrow, learning new song - o magnum, (probably), and I'm going to listen to Ricky. I really hope that this can be over soon. I hope.
8) Maybe things aren't as bad as I think. I'll be positive, maybe, if I can.
YAY YAY YAY YAY!Tired of everything.
Labels: bad, emo, examination, friends, i hate it