twelveheroes

contemporary

2011-07-06T17:08:00.000-07:00

Hello there. I guess it isn't fated for me to post an entry here monthly but I think I'm just too busy to even post something here every week. Well school's started and I'm already feeling tired even though it's only the third day of the reopening of school. Fortunately, I'd be going to China/HongKong next week and I can finally take a break after MYEs! Yeah, definitely excited for it even though I'm still worried about how the competition would go. Nevertheless, I would still try my best to motivate my section and myself to work hard for this! Hopefully we'd get something that'd make ourselves proud, and not anything like what we've gotten for SYF few months ago. Sigh, those painful memories. I should feel grateful for the painful moment (as if the one in 2007 wasn't painful enough) as we have to accept the fact that life is not always smooth-sailing and there're always ups and downs for us to go through and experience. Only then, we would become better individuals who are ready to take on any obstacles and challenges that would stop us. Wow, sounds philosophical! Haha, I'm just kidding. But I'm glad I have gone through those tough times (when I cried in school, OMG) and I have definitely become a more sensible and better individual. (Y)

Anyway, back to the topic, we're leaving for ZhuHai in less than a week and I'm darn excited! :D Can't wait to escape from MJ and go to a place whereby I don't need to study every day and stay up late to complete assignments and study! Woohoo~ Even though that's only for a week and reality would slap me for having a lot of catching up to do, I'm still glad that we have this break. It's as if the June holidays weren't holidays and this trip to China would be a substitute for it. But I guess it's true because for the whole of June holidays, all we have been doing was to study, study and study.

Speaking about June holidays and MYEs, I just got back my GP and Physics papers today. GP wasn't as bad as I've thought, but Physics was... disappointing. I have to admit that I saw this coming because I only spent two hours studying for it on the day before the exam, and... I can only blame myself for it. I guess it serves as a very good lesson for me to buck up and seriously plan my time wisely. Sigh, but what's done is done and all we can do is to look forward and be prepared for the future.

Guess it's time to go now as I still have EOM to complete and I've escaped here to post something to keep myself awake, haha. Adios!

Oh by the way, dad bought us a DSLR (finally) and I can't wait to use it for the trip! :D Here's a picture of my new baby:

tenacity

2011-06-07T16:11:00.000-07:00

I need that. *points up* It hasn't been easy. But all these were expected even before I stepped into MJ. I don't know. The results I get in college are demoralizing. To be honest, I've even crushed a few essays and threw them into the bin as I couldn't bare to take a second look at those grades. What am I going to do in life? I really don't know. Life isn't as smooth-sailing as it has always been and I miss Dunman. I miss the fact that all I've been looking forward to were the practices after school. I miss the people there. I miss the feel they were able to give me. I miss people who accept me and people who do not judge behind my back. It's indeed true to say that everyone judges and everyone is being judged, but I feel very restricted to what I can say in MJ. I even have to judge people before saying anything from the bottom of my heart. People take things seriously.

The above paragraph seems to be very emotional and despondent so I guess I shall move on and leave it hanging there. :) Life hasn't been that bad actually. I mean, it's not to that extent that I would cry every day having to think about school. There are still things I look forward to, like meeting my classmates (nice ones) and friends! Really glad to have them by my side actually.

Well, I can't help but to talk about some of the classmates who are not as nice as those mentioned. Seriously, I believe that it's fated for people to meet, fated for people to be together and fated for people to separate. You're right, fate is what I'm talking about. But some people just don't understand it. It's just fated that our characters cannot go well together and that's it. As simple as that, and I don't see a need for you to talk about me in your blog (which you assume I don't read) and grouse about stuff you're unhappy about me. I mean you're absolutely free to talk about anything under the sun but do you have to be so specific and say that my actions are "childish" and I'm manipulating you to avoid some people? Yes I want to avoid some people in class but does that mean I'm childish? And did I force you to do all those things? I didn't. When I needed peace and silence for a moment, what were you doing there? You just could't stop talking and I'm sorry to say this, but you annoyed me to no point. Sometimes, you just have to be more sensitive to your surroundings because you're not the only one living in the world where everyone is able to tolerate your words and actions.

Back to my point, really happy that there are those who understand how I truly feel about things in college. People like Sheri, Nisya, Jane, Abi Tan and Gwen, I feel blessed for having them as my friends and classmates. And of course, HweeSze for always being there during choir, haha. Speaking about friends, I guess I just have to accept that some friends would never be by your side forever. It has happened so many times and I guess this is finally the end of everything. There used to be moments I cherished the most, when we could talk about practically anything and everything, but now, all these moments have passed and would be forgotten eventually. We have nothing to say to one another. Absolutely nothing, and I'm disappointed. It came to me that you guys are happy without me because you guys are still the same without yours truly. You guys organise dinner outings and so on and I guess they went fine, without me. I just have to accept that it's not gonna be the same anymore, and I just have to let myself be less dependent on you guys for support because after all, my family and other friends would still be there for me. <3

So anyway, I don't really know why I'm here when I'm supposed to be looking through lecture sides to refresh my memory, but it's been good to be able to let out what I've kept inside for so long and I'm glad that the time has been well-spent. :) Guess it's time to get on some serious matters now...

happy april fools' day

2011-04-01T15:38:00.000-07:00

I'm seriously kidding myself by being here to blog when I'm supposed to do things which are more important and crucial. Firstly, there's literature assignment to be done. Secondly, there's economics test on next Monday and I'm probably doomed for it. I'm digging my own grave seriously.

Today marks the start of April and it is a hectic month for the SYF team. I looked at the monthly schedule and it freaks me out. We've started having four practices per week, consecutively. I guess our voices would soon die out and I'm being real honest here. Not that I dislike my choir or anything, but consecutive practices are not effective. It would only drain our energies and with that, it's enough to create adverse effects. Sadly, none of these thoughts would be heard and even if they are, nothing would be done. Our choir just need lots of practices. Gold with Honours? I'm not quite convinced with that goal, but I'm gonna do my best for SYF and astound myself. :D

Anyway, my life doesn't only revolve around choir, choir and choir. There's still school. (obviously) I've been failing tests and I'm disappointed. But this is not gonna get me in any way. I know that I've not put in enough effort and I obviously haven't done my best for them. Lesson noted and learned. And let's move on with life then. I shan't keep talking about it.

To be honest, I still feel like a wallflower in my class. At least in choir, I'm being accepted for who I am and there are people who understand me. But that's not the case in class. It's really sad, honestly. I keep getting the feeling that people are allowed to ignore me but I'm not allowed to do so to them. People think that I'm anti-social and a hindrance to them. I feel sorry for that, but no, I'm not gonna change for that. My closest friends have accepted me for that and why must I change? At this point of time, you might feel that I'm being very unreasonable and headstrong but let me tell you this: I've been putting up with a lot of crap in school and I'm sick and tired of all these. People being arrogant, attention-seeking, coming to you only when they need your help and complaining non-stop. Seriously, why is there a vast difference in my previous school and current college? I know I should be more open-minded and accept others for who they are, and this is too much. Way too much. I have a high tolerance level but this doesn't mean that people should abuse it. What rights do they have to do so? These are the people who make me so sick and tired of school. But besides that, I'm totally fine with the stress that I'm facing. Totally fine.

Sigh, I probably understand why I've come here instead of doing lit or studying for econs test. I seriously need a place or someone to speak to about all these things without being judged or criticised. Obviously no one would truly understand and I bet after reading this post, some might be cursing me in their hearts. But you know what? I don't care because that's how I feel and I'm not gonna hide them and be a hypocrite. Never will I do that.

I honestly feel better after saying all these things and I'm gonna find my motivation to move forward with life again. :) It seriously helps! I know I'm very long-winded when it comes to blog posts, but those are my true feelings about everything I'm facing and there's nothing to hide. :) So as usual, here's a nice picture for everyone before signing off~ :D

finally back

2011-03-17T13:23:00.000-07:00

Hello people! Yeah, I'm finally back, for goodness sake. One of the main reasons for posting this is because Jane has been asking me to update my blog! Argh, when I do update, I really give a detailed update, not a few lines or even one-liner, Jane! Haha. That actually explains why my posts are always long and draggy. If you hate those kind of posts, I suggest you to leave this place once and for all, and never come back because it has evidently become my habit of blogging. :) For people who are the same as me, good for you!

Anyway, school's fine for me, taking in account that I'm still alive and surviving here. I mean, the environment's great, and the people are nice. It's just the JC-life I'm not getting used to. I don't actually know how many times I have to say this before I finally get used to it, but that's just how I'm doing at the moment. (in case you're curious about JC-life) Choir practices have been fine and I'm kinda getting used to the fact that we don't have to greet the teachers and conductors or even ask for the permission to leave the room. I mean, that's MJCHOIR and I have to accept the fact that I'm in it, for good or for worse. I do admit that I miss DMNCHOIR a lot. Who wouldn't? For the past fours years, all I've ever looked forward to in school was choir, choir and choir. Yeah, probably a choir-crazy behaviour but that's from the bottom of my heart. I ♥ DMNCHOIR.

I should stop talking about that before anyone gets pissed off and leave this blog, because I understand how intolerable if one keeps talking non-stop about one issue. So anyway, I am actually not supposed to be blogging at this time as I still have undone work! $#%^ Yeah, I know right. That's JC-life, I guess. (For goodness sake, I've been saying this for countless times, haha) I'm rather proud of myself as I'm left with a little bit of Chinese, Econs and Lit tutorials! Alright, that's actually a lot, so I shall leave now and complete them before Saturday! (The reason for this post being short and sweet, haha)

20th feb 2011

2011-02-20T03:43:00.000-08:00

Hello people! I'm not actually supposed to be here but I guess I just have too take a few minutes to come here and post something. Many things have been happening these few weeks and well, there are a lot of work to be done too. :( But this is only the start of JC-life, I know, I clearly know that. Things have been going smoothly, but I'd still meet people who pisses me off like mad. I know I shouldn't be so sensitive about the people around me, but sometimes, I just can't help noticing people who are doing things I really dislike and naming them my "favourites". I should stop talking about this as it really kills my mood and well, I shall just move on to the happier stuff that has been happening.

I just came back from choir camp yesterday and it was a blast. I had nice group leaders, to be honest. Everything was okay, and everyone had fun. I know saying this is not very nice, but I feel inferior there. I mean, it seems like everyone has formed their cliques and I would be ignored so often by others that I felt so useless and gave up eventually. I swear that even before the camp started, I was very positive about things, wanting to make new friends from there and communicate with people from there. But many things proved me wrong. I gave up on the first night. I gave up cos' there was nothing I could do to make myself feel less inferior. I can't actually tell this to anyone cos' they'd think that I'm being extremely sensitive again and all those. But I'm saying this from the bottom of my heart, I'm not. I don't know why I feel this way. I apologise if my face is too threatening to anyone, but I'm trying my best to change this. I really don't know if I can hold on to this for another year or so. I don't know. Another thing I have to confess is that I can't help but to compare MJCHOIR to DMNCHOIR. I know comparing is not healthy and definitely not encouraged to do so, but I can't help doing that. I'm actually prepared to be confronted by anyone since I've decided to say all these here. But at least I'm being honest. Even though all these might seem a little too pessimistic, I still have to say that it takes time for things to take their shapes. I'm not discriminating MJCHOIR in any way, but it takes times for me to accept it the way it is. It takes time for everything, I guess. So I do have expectation for MJCHOIR after all.

I guess it's rather ironic that I said that I should talk about something else which would be happier at the end of paragraph one but end up talking about something pessimistic in paragragh two. But it's okay, what's done is done and I'm not gonna change it anyway. So I've had enough of rambling and well, today is after all yours truly's birthday, haha. Let's talk about something which is really worth to be happy for. :) And that is... my dad got me a Macbook Pro! (for birthday I guess, cos' I wouldn't ask for anything more) Some might think that this is a stupid thing to be happy for, but let me tell you something: this is my second 2011 resolution that I have accomplished! (first for being in MJ) Oh, and talking about resolutions, I think the resolution of being in MJ is a little distorted as if you were to refer to that post talking about itm I've mentioned that I would join the photography club for sure. But well, guess what? I'm back in choir and... yeah, there are reasons for it but I guess it wouldn't be appropriate to mention them here. Guess I'll just have to wait for the right time to say them. :) So anyway, I'm back in choir and hopefully, things would change. And I would get into SYF. And blah blah blah.

So... I'm gonna be out later with UCP to have buffet! It's the first time celebrating birthday with friends, or rather UCP on the day itself and I'm rather excited for it. Please don't say that I'm heartless for leaving my family at home while I enjoy myself cos' it's not true alright! My parents would be having a performance and well, I guess they might be having dinner outside and all those. Furthermore, they were the ones who said that they wouldn't be able to celebrate this year's birthday with me, but I guess it's okay. I'm seventeen! (no longer seven or whatsoever, so I understand) So anyway, I actually can't believe that I'm already seventeen. :O And time passes even faster when you're having lots of things to do! It's kinda hectic actually, but it's time for me to get used to all these!

I guess that's all for today and see you guys next time! :D

fresh start

2011-01-26T11:54:00.000-08:00

Well, the title explains it all and yeah, I'm going to MJ. :D I was actually thinking about how to get to NYJ yesterday before I slept as I had a feeling that I'd be going there. But it turned out otherwise, which I'm really glad. And UCP girls are united as we're going to the same school. :) The rest of them are opting for Science stream while I prefer the Arts. Well, I wouldn't say that I'm an artistic person, but I'm way better in Literature than Sciences. I kinda regret taking pure sciences for the past two years tho', but it's pointless regretting it now, since I've graduated from there. :) I shall just move on with life and think about the next step. I just browsed facebook and realise how I might be isolated in the new school. I mean, there's hardly anyone taking the Arts stream and those who'd be taking are sadly, not close to me at all. But to truthfully think about this, it might be good as I would then be able to focus more on academics rather than any other stuff which might bother me. :) I'd still hang out with UCP and Veggies tho', cos they're my friends for life! Tho' all of them have their own group friends, I would still be there for any one of them if they need help. :) Just like how they were there for me when I needed them.

School's officially starting tomorrow and hopefully I'd adapt to this new environment as soon as possible. I would only be spending two years here and time really flies! In no time, t'd be 2012 and hopefully, I'd be in J2. Well, hopefully is the word. But of cos, what's the pointing of saying it when no action is carried out? I would give it my best shot in everything I promise, tho' I know it's not as easy as it's said and my close friends are describing college as 'hell'. But I guess I'm prepared. I've rested enough and it's time to explore the next chapter of my life. I was just looking through my post on 1st Jan 2011 and I realised that I've accomplished one of my new year's resolutions of getting into MJ! Haha, that seriously makes me happy and it gives me the motivation to work even harder while studying there. I honestly think that motivation is very important. Yes, this is what we always hear from people around us and it gets boring over some time, but trust me, it's true. Without motivation, how are we supposed to push ourselves forward without stopping so frequently? Ttruth be told, we're humans and we always need some rest after a long and tiring journey. However, after resting, we have to find ourselves new motivations to keep us moving forward, and it would definitely be better if we're moving at a faster pace than before. Having said all these, I have a plan that suddenly pops up in my head and I guess, I should just carry it out. :) From today onwards, I would carry post-its and my schedule book around. Hopefully, after each lecture or tutorial, I would have the time to quickly jot down what I've learnt and review them eventually at the end of the day. :) Haha, it sounds simple, but do you really think it is? I don't actually think so but there's no harm giving it a try.

My mind is actually blank now and I don't know what else to say here. How am I feeling about going to a new school tomorrow? Well, I'm having mixed feelings about it. Probably excitement, fear, anxiousness, curiousness, and whatever you can think of to suit my feelings. I have to admit that there's something that's mind-bothering for me and that is the hope to make new friends. I know, I know how intimidating I've always looked. I've always been trying to change that but I guess I still need time. I don't really like the feeling of putting on a fake smile when I'm not feeling happy. I don't want people to have a false impression of me. But at the same time, I don't want people to be afraid of me and fun away from me. It just bothers me. But I guess the best thing to do is to not think about it and be myself. I should just be excited for school tomorrow and put on a genuine smile. :) Anyway, I'm gonna see lots of familiar faces tomorrow and it's just gonna be a school day filled with surprises, haha.

I guess that's all for me today and I'm probably gonna sing some songs, forget there's school tomorrow until my mum wakes me up and be a happy happy kid. :D Adiós!

blessing

2011-01-11T09:04:00.000-08:00

Yes, we collected the results yesterday and I got an L1R5 of 11. Mediocre result, but it was kinda expected. I can't say I'm sad, but I'm not that happy either. Congratulations to all who have done well and keep up the good work! For those who didn't do ask well as you've expected, it's alright. (Perhaps I'm in no position to say this, but trust me, it's definitely not the end of the world, remember? It's in 2012! Nah, definitely not a believer of it) But anyway, no matter what result you get, where you go, or who you're with, do not slow down your pace of life. In fact, we should all take bigger steps in life and move on with it. There's nothing to fear about failures in life, they just make us even stronger than before. We can choose to grieve about them, but isn't it better to learn our lessons, know our mistakes and move on with life as a stronger person? Here's hoping that everyone (no matter who you are, no matter if I like you or dislike you, no matter how well you fared for Os) would get into their desired schools and no matter where you guys go, be happy with it as what's in store would be better as God is always with us. :) I have no idea when I've begun to talk about God, but as a Buddhist, we believe there's such a thing as blessing from God. And I'm really lucky to have been one of them.

I know I shouldn't be talking about grades and all those stuff, but I really wanna share with you guys the joy that I felt! I've actually got an A2 for Chemistry! Alright, it might be nothing to you but to me, it's like everything. (hyperbole, but oh whatever) I've been failing it since Secondary Three and I've never passed any one of the exams or tests on this subject. Yeah, that's really sad. Even when studying for it, I've been telling myself no to expect anything better than a grade C as I would be more than happy to actually pass it. But miracles do happen, and of course, I studied hard for it. For your information, I'm not a "chemically-inclined" person and therefore while others can remember the content as well as a nursery rhyme, I had to spend more time and effort and do hardcore memorising so that I can regurgitate the content in the exam hall. That's how difficult it is for me to study Chemistry. And of course, there are more content-based subjects which I had to memorise and it wasn't easy for me. So anyway, it was really a blessing for me to get an A2 for Chemistry and it's really unexpected. :) And another subject that I'm really happy for is Literature in English. Well, I haven't been doing as bad as Chemistry as for it but for the two years studying it, I haven't got an A. My results for Literature were mediocre and well, sometimes even a fail in some essays. But I've got an A1 for it! It's God's blessing again and, we must also thank Ms Angelina Tang, our Literature teacher who helped us a lot. (even though some of us thought that some lessons were rather ridiculous, hehe)

So anyway, I'm finished with sharing my joy and yes, the results were really unexpected. I didn't really dare or bother to ask anyone except for my close friends about their results as I'm afraid that they would lead to awkward situations. Fortunately all my friends did well and none of them needed comforting! :D Gladness. But I've heard some of the sad cases whereby outstanding students had unexpected results. I just hope they would pull themselves up and stand up again. After all, it's part of life and yes, life still goes on no matter what happens.

Alrght, I should just stop talking about results since I'm neither here nor there, happy nor sad. Okay, but I'm sure that I would be happy to get into MJC. I've browsed their school's photography club website and it looks awesomely cool! They even went to Perth in 2007! I hope I do have a chance to join them if there should be another overseas trip! :D The club looks so interesting and I totally love their photos. However, I still have to consider about choir after what Ms Yeo have told me cos' that's where I "shine" in. Well, I don't really know what to say, but to be honest, my passion for singing in choir is sadly, not as strong as before. Perhaps I can only get the joy of singing in Dmnchoir as I find it hard to adapt to different teaching methods, especially in the area of singing. Furthermore, I don't really like the politics problems there. Yes, indeed, like what Ms Yeo have said, I can just mind my own business, but the thing is, I'm not living in my own world and after all, I still care about people around me. (and I can be quite busybody sometimes) *Sigh* Why am I wavering at this time? I guess it's time for me to think about it so that I wouldn't do anything that would make me regret.

Currently, we still have to wait till the 26th to know the results and well, I'm praying hard that MJ would accept me or I'd have to travel very far from home! Gah, I guess I can only leave it up to God. Whatever He has in store for it, they'll definitely be the best and I would be appreciative. :) Going off now so see you guys next time! Adiós!

2011

2011-01-01T13:02:00.000-08:00

It's finally 2011. What have you guys been doing for the first day of new year? I guess everyone's partying like there's no tomorrow. But that's not the case for me. It was an ordinary day. But there's nothing bad or wrong with leading a day that's ordinary, ain't it? In fact, my days wouldn't be ordinary once I step into the new school, regardless of where I would be going. I've actually been thinking a lot, and I realise that I have been quite foolish and immature in front of my family and friends. After all, I'm still someone with awful mood swings and people around me have to withstand those. I feel terribly sorry for that but I would change for the better in the year of 2011.

Anyway, as I've mentioned yesterday, I'm back here to share my New Year resolutions and this year, there wouldn't be twelve of them. (as far as I could remember, I think I made twelve of them last year and eventually, less than half of them were accomplished) I shall be more realistic this year and be less materialistic. (of course) I'm not really sure how to start with this but oh well, I shall just number them and do some elaboration on them. (in no order of importance as I just jot down whatever comes to my mind)

1) To have a smooth-sailing year ahead for my family
Well, the end of 2010 wasn't really good. I shan't spend time talking about unhappy stuff but I just hope that my dad gets his job soon. Though my sister and I were not really stressed because of financial issues, I can really feel how helpless my mum and dad were. To think that they'd rather sacrifice what they have to bring us happiness, it brings tears to my eyes. Seriously, which parents don't do that? They are after all those who brought us into this world and the ones who gave us everything they have. Without them, I'm positive that we'd be nothing. Thanks dad and mum for everything for the past 16 years and I hope that 2011 would be a way better year than 2010. :)

2) To get into MJC
Honestly, I'm leaving everything to God cos' there's nothing I can do to change my results or whatsoever. However, even if I don't get into this school, I wouldn't blame anyone even though it wouldn't stop me from feeling disappointed. Hopefully I would get in there and join the photography club as it sounds rather cool and I would like to pick up something new. I hope to get in there as it seems like a second Dunman. Many regard this as boring and whatsoever but it's not the case for me. I'm more than happy actually to be studying in another school just like Dunman. Furthermore, I have my lovely seniors there. :) Alright, this sounds really cheesy, but it's true. And if I get in there, I would definitely pick the Arts stream as obviously, I'm more suited for Arts than Sciences. Probably taking Math as a contrasting subject too. :)

3) Get a Macbook
Alright, let's be clear about this. It's not like I'm using a lappy now because I don't have one, as I only own a desktop and I really want a lappy badly. It's not because I want whatever people has but I think it would be of great convenience if I have a lappy instead. However, I might not get it as soon as my dad stll hasn't got his job confirmed. Well, I hope it gets confirmed soon so that we're able to have a joyful CNY. By the way, I can't wait for it to come! But I know my parents don't really like it as financial issues would be brought up again. :/ Nevertheless, I hope my family would have a happy CNY.

4) To lose some weight
Seriously, I hate talking about this issue but I just have to lose some weight. Not as if I'm some anorexic model but I guess everyone wants to look better and be healthier. There's nothing wrong to be fit unless it's to an extent that one is anorexic. I do admit that I love food though, (who doesn't?) but I would try my best to cut down on my diet but at the same time, eat healthily. :)

5) To make new friends
Guess people would be thinking that this is extremely funny as this is one of the easiest things on earth. But it's not for me, especially in a new environment. I'm a rather anti-social people and I don't trust people easily. It's hard to be my friend cos' I judge people secretly. (not by their looks of cos) Yeah, I do, as after all, I'm still a human. I have certain kind of people whom I dislike and I hope that they would have minimal contact with me this year, no matter who they are. And yes, they are the hypocrites. Seriously speaking, these people are worse than haters. At least haters have the guts (?!) to insult you in your face. At least they do not hide their real feelings about one. At least they're still trustworthy after all. But what about hypocrites? I think they're trash. Yes, I do agree that some emotions and comments are meant to be hidden as they're better not to be disclosed. However, hypocrites hide all their emotions and comments, especially negative ones and back-stab people. I hate these people, especially those who betray their friend's trust. And yes, I have encountered one and apparently that person is still being regarded as the angel in others' eyes. Alright, I guess I shouldn't spend time and space rambling about how much I hate hypocrites but back to topic, I would really wanna make new friends, and hopefully nice ones that trust me and are trustworthy. I think trust is one of the most important elements in friendship. And well, to be honest, I'm not really trusted by whoever out there, apparently. But fortunately, I know my family trust me. :)

6) To stay in good contact with people whom I cherish a lot (since we're leaving Dunman, or have already left)
I wouldn't wanna list all of them here as I've met a lot of people who've helped me in one way or another, but I just hope to keep in good contact with them. Thankfully, I'm still in contact with the Veggies after one year and I still love them like I used to! Really hope to meet up soon when they're all free as I've missed the last one, aw. Anyway, special mention for my next group of friends, the UCP. They're great too. And I don't know why, I also have to mention this person as I've had one of the best times in Dunman because of her, and she's AunnNing. :) Well, she's real smart and leaving for RJ but I really hope to keep in contact with her! :D

I guess my New Year resolutions would end here or I'll think of other impractical resolutions that I wouldn't keep to. Those that have been mentioned are quite realistic, I guess, and hopefully, on the 31st of December in 2011, I'd look back at this post, realising that all my resolutions would have already been accomplished! :) I'm feeling excited as I talk about it and hopefully, I repeat, hopefully they would all come true. Of course, without the lack of determination and discipline! :D

2011, here I come!

"Whatever you did in 2010 it has already happened. You have learned, and make 2011 better than 2010."

31st december 2010

2010-12-31T05:46:00.000-08:00

So it's the last day of 2010. What's everyone up to? As for me, I've nothing to do. After all, I might still be an anti-social kid as everyone seems to have their own friends to celebrate with. Well, I can't actually blame anyone because I guess I'm apparently an acquaintance to most of them, or rather, all of them. What's worse is that my parents would be out this evening to probably after midnight and countdown to 2011 with their friends. I can't believe that that's happening. Even my parents are out, and I have no one to go out with. *sigh* I shouldn't harp on that anymore and let's move on to New Year's resolutions. I know I haven't accomplished all of 2010's or rather, I've accomplished none. I can't actually refer to anything now as I have no reference at all. (deleted them, remember?) However, I do remember saying that I wanna learn guitar and pick up photography classes. And all these are still left unaccomplished. Partly because I don't have the ability to do so now. Dad's jobless and his new job ain't confirmed. I just hope he gets it so that life would be so much better for us in the year of 2011.

Anyway, since I have nothing to do today, I thought it might be a good idea to come by here and blog. And oh, I'm also not going out tomorrow. Well, who can I blame again? Nobody but myself. I don't actually get it. Is it because I do not have the initiative to ask people out? I don't actually think so because I get rejected 90% of the time. But honestly, who would wanna go out with an idiot who's so boring? Someone who has no plans, who does things by her mood. What an idiot, isn't she? Alright, I have totally no idea why I'm scolding myself like this. For the past 16 years, it has always been like this but it seems like I'm feeling different this year. I don't know why.

I should pretty much stop this as after all, I would still be going out with UCP on Sunday to celebrate Paul's 17th birthday. How time flies. And hopefully it wouldn't rain on that day or it'd be a waste to go to Sentosa. Speaking of it, I haven't been there for quite some time and I wonder how it's looking now. Probably great. Greater than I can imagine. I should seriously stop being so pessimistic about life at this point of time as I believe it probably brings bad luck to the new year, haha.

I guess that's all for now and I would be coming back here to blog about New Year's resolutions and some other stuff, so bye for now.

26th

2010-12-26T06:45:00.000-08:00

Well, Christmas was memorable, I would say. The picnic was okay, or rather leaning towards the 'bored' section but it was bearable. I mean, there wasn't much interaction and all I felt was awkwardness. Kids playing with sand, adults talking to themselves and well, I guess the thing I did the most was to eat, haha. But it was okay. No presents this Xmas at all, but it's okay. (again) So I went to EastPoint to meet Lin Yu Chun after getting washed up and changed after the picnic. And fortunately, due to the fact that it was raining, my dad decided to bring us there instead. I wouldn't say that the mall was packed with people, but there was a reasonable number of fans there. At least we've got the front-view of him and of course, we took a lot of photos. Alright, with 133 photos, 3 videos and 1 autographed album, what more can I ask for? :D His live singing was awesome and oh-my-godly. He's a nice chap by the way too. :) However I'm still disappointed as I can't attend his music showcase today at St. James Dragonfly! It's pretty much unfair as it's M18, which means I can't get in at all, even with his album as it's a pub meant for adults. Grr... How dumb can this be? But whatever, I'm just gonna lie to myself that there isn't such thing (tho' I've just reminded myself of it) and here are some photos to share. :)

Apparently we looked like refugees from some natural disasters because we had no shelter to seek for when the rain came so suddenly. :P

Haha, I've just flooded this blog with Lin Yu Chun's photos and I'm feeling rather guilty now. By the way, I've watched 'Come Fly With Me' by Matt Lucas and David Walliams and it was great and funny! Alright for now, adiós! :D

christmas '10

2010-12-24T17:08:00.000-08:00

Yeah, Merry Christmas to everyone out there. Well, time passes really fast. It seems like it was yesterday when I celebrated Xmas '09 with my family. Oh my. It does surprise me actually. But at the same time, I'm rather glad that Os are finally over and I have time to enjoy myself. (not really enjoying myself that much, but rather, doing nothing all day long) Whatever it may be, I would cherish the free time I have now as I know life wouldn't be easy the next year, no matter where I go, be it JC or poly.

I have actually been thinking, what if I can't get into MJ? There would be a lot of possibilities but I wouldn't be able to make up my mind. I guess to put in simple, I am prepared for the worst. But of course I sincerely hope would get into MJ. I've been kinda preparing to get into the photography club there by reading up on some books borrowed from the library! I know it might sound desperate but after all, my intention is good. Not praising myself tho'.

So anyway, I shall make three wishes for this special day! Well, to actually spice up my blog even tho' I know that no one actually reads it.

1) I hope that dad would get his job in Jan 2011 and hopefully, he would be paid way better than the previous jobs. No, I'm not hoping for extra pocket-money or whatsoever (because I haven't had them for two months) but I hope my family could lead our lives more comfortably in the future. And to add on, I hope that my family and I would continue to live harmoniously under one roof. :)

2) I hope that my sister would be more concerned about her studies and hopefully she would do her best in school, not computer games. As for me, I really hope that I would get at least L1R5 of 10 (of course, the smaller the better) and get into MJ successfully.

3) I hope to be a better person in 2011. Well, now I'm making in sound like my new year resolution, but it's okay. So anyway, I think I haven't been a bad person for the year of 2010 but there are definitely rooms for improvement because nobody's perfect. I know my weaknesses and my strengths and I believe I would be a better person.

So here are my three wishes for Christmas, what are yours? Alright it might seem idiotic as I'm talking to nobody here but sometimes, I think it's necessary to create imaginary readers to give you the motivation to keep blogging, ain't it? Well, it is for me.

In a few hours time I would be in ECP with my whole family for Christmas picnic! Not quite sure what we'd be doing for it, but I know my cousin(s) is/are gonna make it a good and memorable one. :) And afterwards I would be dropping by EastPoint at 5:00 to meet Lin Yu Chun! Isn't that great? Haha, I've put up a link at his link so if your living in a cave and don't know who he is, you might wanna take a look there. (well, just kidding) And so, I shan't spend the rest of my post rambling about how great he is cos' I'm gonna witness it myself tomorrow! :D I hope to take a photo with him! :P (bleh, stopping it)

Alright so I guess this should be it, as I definitely need to get enough sleep for tomorrow! Adios! :D

apparently

2010-12-17T12:19:00.000-08:00

I did something I regret even till now - deleting all the posts from 2010 onwards here. You might be questioning why there are still posts before this one, and it's because I've exported them from blogger. (which is kinda lucky that I had another blogging platform) Anyway, now it just seems like I have no memories of 2010, or rather, "I've spent my time studying for O Levels instead of blogging." Haha, that's crap but to think of it, it's rather funny. :) I actually still remember the last time I posted an entry here was on the 20th of February 2010, saying that I'd be on a hiatus till the end of Os. And apparently, I didn't return straight after that, but rather, wondered about and even moved on to tumblr, which I later regret. Why did I say that? Firstly, it ain't that bad, but perhaps it's because I'm kinda used to wordpress-style blogging, I guess. :) Anyway, it's already December now and what has actually happened for the past ten months? Alright, it would be a total lie to say that I've studied for Os for the past ten months and never used the internet because of the fact that I have been on twitter 24/7. Twitter is like my mini-blog which I have 6,077 tweets on it now, haha. That's a huge number! I kinda update it very frequently and sometimes, even flood it, which I'm guilty of. However, I've stopped flooding it as much as before or rather, you hardly see me there anymore. But trust me, I wouldn't quit tweeting. :)

Anyway, I was reading some of my posts in the previous years and I find some of them rather questionable. In fact, I was wondering if they were written by me. (and obviously, they were) I think I've grown quite a lot during these years, haven't I? Oh my, I wouldn't even be taking Os this year if I haven't, haha. Wow, some of the posts seriously scare the hell out of me as they're like, Ricky-crazy? Haha, that rhymes but it wasn't intentional. Anyway, I seriously hate the fact that I was so irritating. Sorry guys, if any of you happen to see this. I've just edited or even deleted some of the posts which I found irritating in case anyone still reads this blog and feels like dying, haha. I was so immature then. Not like I'm oh-so-mature now, but at least, I have stopped rambling about my obsessions. Oh and by the way, I still love his songs and him but I feel that it's unnecessary to keep mentioning him as it gets irritating. I understand that totally. :)

Well, I really don't know what else to say now so I guess I'll have to return later. :)

friday-blogging

2009-08-15T11:46:00.000-07:00

There must be a reason why I named this post 'friday-blogging', and I think you're smart enough to know it. But for those who doesn't know, it's just the fact that I'm going to blog every Friday if it's possible, and I'll be on hiatus if there should be any examination. :) Are you happy? Haha, I bet you're not cos I'm actually talking to nobody. Everyone thinks that my blog is officially closed and no one comes here anymore, lol. But it's okay. This is a free platform where I can express my views and thoughts without any restrictions. :)

Well, school's boring as predicted. I'm kinda used to going to choir without the seniors already. :) Which is a good thing and it definitely doesn't mean that I've forgotten them, duh. I think the main reason is because there's UCP. Aw, I'm saying something that's unbelievable! Lol, just kidding, but for the first time, I'm saying something good and UCP. :X

Oh oh, and not to forget about Ricky duh. I've just saw him yesterday on the fund-raising show for the flood in Taiwan! Omg, it's so coincidentally that I switched on the TV and saw him. And the best thing is, he sang 'We Are the World'! That song is a not-to-be-missed seriously. Initially, I thought he would not be able to make his appearance in any shows as I thought he was still in Malaysia. But good thing is that he's fine. :)

I think that's all I have to say. I haven't done any homework and I'm going to do them tomorrow. So... gotta get some sleep while listening to Ricky! :)

PS: My blogger account is also working at the same time. So do drop a tag there when you're free. :)

Listening to: Michael Jackson - We Are the World

farewell

2009-07-02T21:23:00.000-07:00

I don't know if this is real, or I'm just saying this for fun. I think I won't be using the computer anymore if necessary. And saying this means that I'll not be blogging as frequent anymore. However, I'll still be twittering through my phone as I've downloaded an application called TinyTwitter, haha. So I'll still twit once in a while when there is WiFi! :) Well, I kind of feel nostalgic now. Argh, I think I'm crazy, haha.

I have a feeling that I love Science instead of Math now. Four periods of Math were tiring, really. I rather have four periods of Science than to have Math. I think I just don't have the knack for Math that I need much more time than others to get what teacher is saying. Oh well, it's just a fact and I'll have to accept it. But I'll never give up! :)

Oh, by the way, I've made myself a scrapbook and I have been updating it quite frequently, when waiting for lessons, etc. I think it's quite cool, but I hate the fact that it's actually a lined-exercise book. I shall get a feel plain diary or plain exercise book someday. And decorate it like what I've done for my current scrapbook. Lol, there's no photos of it as I don't even think you would wanna look at it, haha.

Anyway, school's going well, just that there's some irritating classmates. I think they can be nominated as the best actor for they're good in acting. One act as if he's very clever, one act as if he's a gangster, one is pure irritating and the list goes on. Fortunately these people are out of my comfort zone. (They're sitting rather far away from me, phew) And I have smart people sitting around me. Hope to be as smart as them, and Jolyon is one of them. Lol. I don't really mind that seating arrangement anyway, only hate that the pretty but irritating curtain keeps flying to my face, and that I have no one to talk to. (Or I'll put it as I don't want to talk to anyone) Quite a nice seat though. I love it. :)

OMG, I'm going to record myself. I don't know if I can make it. But I don't care that much anymore. I think I'll record tomorrow. Well, life's unpredictable. I shouldn't expect too much as I tend to have too many disappointments.

Before I go, here's some blogskins I've made recently and hope you guys would like it. :)
• twenty : the beginning of a new day
• twenty : the answer to your life (SOTD)
• twenty : very entertaining
• twenty : good friends

And of course, here's the one last nice thing I'm going to share. Love it.

Well, please cry for me cos I'm leaving! But nah, smile and wish me luck! :)

vanity

2009-07-01T21:24:00.000-07:00

School has officially started, and it has been going quite well! :) But the fact is that I'm sitting right in front of the teacher's desk. Rather surprising though. I thought school really sucks, but I was wrong. I like Mrs F. better now, and so are other teachers. Maybe it's the fact that I have two Chinese teachers now that makes me like going for Chinese lessons, haha, that's so weird but who cares? Mdm C. is quite nice. :) but she haven't taught anything yet. For now, I can say that she's at least better than the former one. I've realized that I love Chem and wow, teenage is rather true. Oh, speaking of astrology reminds me to check on facebook's as it's rather true too. Here's mine this week.

Don't overdo it. You need to enjoy yourself. Take time to find out if anyone has a better suggestion before you make arrangements for the whole family. Don't overextend yourself in the process.Your partner may be erratic this week if you haven't paid enough attention to him or her.
Your lucky day this week will be Friday.

OMG seriously. Look at the second last sentence, lol. Nevermind, just ignore it, haha. :) I'm quite worried about recording for both Sops and mine. *Sigh* but the good thing is, I'm recording with Doreen tomorrow! I mean, not together, but yea, we just accompany each other. :) I hope it'll turn out well. And wish me luck on Friday as I'll be submitting everyone's and mine to Mr Toh.

Here's something nice again, I love this.

Don't tear my heart into pieces.

tree house

2009-06-28T17:11:00.000-07:00

I've just watched a show about tree house and it's so cool. I hope I can build something like that one day, haha, if I have a chance to go abroad, of course. A lake house like the one in 'The Lake House' would be nice too. It's gorgeous, but the only fact that it doesn't really make sense is that almost 70% of the house is made up of transparent glass, lol. But it's nice! I would like to buy such house. If you do not have an idea of how the house looks like, here's it.

Ain't it gorgeous? It is, just admit, lol. Argh, I can't wait to live in my own house! Nah, just kidding. Why would I live in my own house at this age/ I think I'll be scared till death if I live alone. Imagine living in a big house at night and the lights suddenly went off. That's scary. At least I don't have to be afraid of such things now. I'll probably stop talking about this, cos I myself is getting bored.

Tomorrow.

chocolate cake

2009-06-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

I’ve gotten myself so-called a new haircut, and I look a little… too kiddy, if I could put the hairstyle in words. I think the hairdresser cut more than 2 inches of my fringe and I kind of feel heartbroken. Nah, just kidding. A new haircut, a new beginning. School’s reopening in two days time, and I really don’t feel like going back. :/ I’m in my holiday mood now, argh. I don't really feel good about things. But hey, there's finally something for me to look forward to, and that is tomorrow's Music Award! Yay, and I'm gonna see Ricky! :D I'm happy, although I know the possibility of him getting that award is slim, I'll still support him as he worked hard for the current album. :)

Anyway, I was listening to the radio while cutting my hair this morning, and I heard some stuffs about children/teenagers having depression, and they even gave a checklist about it. After hearing it, I realize that I do show some signs of depression sometimes, haha. But I think that it's just a habit of mine to keep quiet almost every time, and to usually hide my emotions, lol. So it's not exactly true.

I've just watched the trailer of 'The Time Travellers Wife' and it's so nice. I will definitely watch it. It will be released on 14 August, and I hope it's after EOY, and not like, before or in the mist of it. :/ But it's a nice movie and I'm so gonna watch it! Click here for the trailer. I'm quite interested in the book too.

Oh, and speaking of book, I still haven't done the reading journey. Argh, gonna be in dead meat. But it's okay, I've read some books during the holidays, and these books can finally do something useful besides providing me with knowledge, lol. I love the book 'Time Stops for No Mouse' by Michael Hoeye although it may be a little funny as this book talks about the life of a mouse, lol. I love Hermux Tantamoq, the watchmaker in the book! He It is so cute, haha.

Alright, got to go, bye and no nice stuffs for you guys today, haha.

Love comes and go without realizing.

hello & thank you

2009-06-23T21:38:00.000-07:00

What a random title seriously. I realize that this is always what I start my post with, lol. But it's okay, it's the contents that matter, haha. I found this cute.

Dearest fans of mine, I'm going to commit suicide soon, and you're not going to see me ever again. I am just going to inform you people that okay? If you really want to see me for one last time, please come to my house. Please be there in 10 minutes. I'm not going to wait for your arrival. Remember to bring your cameras! For what? To take one last photo with me and post it on facebook, twitterpic or whatever! Haha, please remember me forever as I've at least treated you as my friend once.

Okay, surely no one would want to text that to their friends if they're really gonna die right? Lol, but I just think that it's funny, haha. :) If someone really text that to me, I would think that it's not real, or I'll probably ignore it. ARGH, I'm a bad friend. Haha, just kidding, but if my friends are in danger or in need of someone, I'll be there for them! :D Some kind of good friend I am, right? Lol, just kidding.

OMG, next Tuesday is the deadline for submitting the recording! I was stunned, really. I didn't expect it to be so fast. But one good thing is that, at least it's not audition and we won't have to face Mr Toh's face, which I would probably still shiver in front of him, although it has been three years. (I mean, two and a half years to be exact) Okay, I'm being lame but that's not the main point! O MAGNUM MYSTERIUM! O-M-G~ How am I suppose to survive it? ARGH, nevermind. We'll probably help the ones who need help in both singing and recording on Thurs and Mon. Probably needs SuErn's help on Sat, as time is really running out. ARGH, I have Chinese project on Thurs, and I can only make it on Monday. :/ Or maybe I'll try recording myself, lol. I think it'll sound damn funny. But oh well.

Choir was okay today, but just that some people said that I'm too violent to squeeze SiHui's mouth? Oh whatever, I don't know what it's called. Anyway, I was stunned when Mr Toh suddenly called me, so I didn't know what to do, and fyi, I'm not violent okay?! I just squeezed arder as she didn't want to open her mouth! Grr..

Here's something nice again, haha.

This is Prague. It's really a beauty.

Speaking of Prague, it reminds me of what I've asked Doreen just now on the bus. Both of us don't really want to go for the tour anymore. Reason being, (I shall not expose hers, as it's a not-so-good one) I don't really feel the urge to go for tour anymore. There may be many reasons, but I'm still not very sure now. Firstly, the seniors are gone, and even if they come back, I would feel useless and I'll just be another burden to them. Secondly, I feel that our standard dropped, and singing O Magnum is not as holy and happy as before. Okay, maybe these two are the main reasons, but there are also other less important factors which are really "not allowing" me to go for the tour. I really feeling confused and I'm at a loss. But oh well, I shall check with Doreen again for her decision and we'll decide if we're gonna tell Ms Yeo on Fri. :)

Well, I shan't think so much or I'll be depressed again. There are so many things to think about. I think it's better to excuse yourself for some of the less important ones. :) In that case, you'll be more carefree, and you'll have less problems that are approaching. :D Lol, I've become a motivational speaker blogger in one way or another. (I'm sorry, but I can't really speak. I kinda gets on my nerves when I'm loss for words, lol)

Going out with Dodo Doreen tmr! Please don't scold me for not organizing sectionals or something, but Hs, SuErn and I are really busy, and this has basically explained it all. Anyway, hope that we can really study successfully, due to the fact that there are not much distractions around us. Haha, maybe we shall take some random pics, (I haven't taken one since that day) and maybe practise singing O Magnum! OMG, it's a little contradicting as I've said I'm a little disappointed with our O Magnum standard but here I am, a little crazy and obsessed with this holy song. :) But I think that's good. And hope we'll have some nice food like Niwa Sushi tmr! Excited!~ YAY.

Argh, even though I'm sure more than 50% of the people voted for extended holidays, the government still wants school to reopen, which is kind of disheartening for most of the students, including me. I mean, I didn't really "enjoyed" my holidays seriously. I mean, I can't even get a few consecutive days of resting! My (including my other's) holidays revolve around choir, sectionals, lessons, a little of ltc and project meetings. It's like, OMG? And the recording deadline adds another disadvantage of not having extended holidays. ARGH. First week of June is choir camp, second week is ltc, third week are sectionals and choir, and this week, I'm kind of sick of this. I mean, I don't mind sectionals and choir, but I really can't have enough rest. Alright, I shall not "complain" about all this, but to face the reality and wake up from my dream, lol.

I'm kind of obsessed with twitter, really. And I seriously want N97! It's so cool. I really hope that my father wants to change the phoneline (or whatever you call that) from Starhub to Singtel. So that I can grab a chance to get the phone. OMG, so evil of me to think of this. But nevermind, we'll talk about that, and I'm obsessed with it! Haha, nevermind, I'm crazy.

Alright, it's 10 now, and I'm really tired and feel like dozing off. got to go! Bye! Haha.

Face the reality, wake up from your dream.

half-half

2009-06-19T22:52:00.000-07:00

Alright. What a random title. Actually, it's Ricky's song, haha. Okay, I'm laughing again upon thinking of him.

Anyway, today's choir was... okay for me, as I was sick and I sat at the back. I feel a little useless, but I can't help it. I don't even know how I fell sick. I didn't eat any fried or oily food, really. I don't even get to touch them as my mom don't even cook fried food, haha. But maybe it's because I'm lack of sleep of something. I just can't get enough sleep these few days. And I'll still have to go to school tmr cos of the Chinese project. ARGH, what a mood-spoiler. I hate meetings seriously. They spoil my mood for the whole day. Anyway, back to 'choir' topic, I think I'll soon go to Altos as my voice seriously can't reach high notes anymore, and I'm feeling that I'm damn airy. I hope that some people understand how it feels like to be left out. I mean, it doesn't feel good at all okay. I think I'll soon not be the SL anymore, as someone better is taking my place. :) Just hope that these are the symptoms of my damn bad sore throat, and I hope tat it just made me brain malfunctioned for a second. :/ It sucks having sore throat and I hope you'll know.

Oh, I'll stop finding the causes of my sore throat or you'll really be bored till death, lol. Oh, btw, tumblr is great! It's kinda cool, unlike plurk, haha. :) Plurk is not really nice, as it has the 'karma' thingy which kind of sucks as it requires you to increase your karma to use some applications there. Twitter still rocks. :) Haha. Lol, something damn random: I think Green Day's songs kinda hype me up! Especially Basket Case, haha.

Haha. And here's something nice again. :)

By yours truly, and I quite like it. Anyway, fyi, the paper was by me too. It's not any toilet paper or anything, but it's just a page from notebook from ArtBox. Anyway, artbox rocks socks. :) Haha. It sells many cute stuffs that I want to buy, but my wallet doesn't allow. :/ Lol.

I want to have an outing!

It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.

you took my place

2009-06-18T21:33:00.000-07:00

I'm quite worried for tmr's choir practice. I don't know why, but... maybe I'm wrong. I just hope everything turns out well. And next week is the audition! OMGOMGOMG. Anyway, I've just submitted a skin on blogskins, and it is quite well received. You might wanna preview it here. Haha, support me okay! :)

Ricky's busy again, haha. But just hope that he'll update before school reopens! Nevertheless, I'm still not sick of his songs, especially 我是你的消防局, haha! :D And omg, here's something nice for you guys.

Ain't it a beauty?

True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

blogthings

2009-06-15T17:45:00.000-07:00

• Are You Facebook, MySpace, or Twitter?
You Are Twitter
You are energetic to the point of being hyperactive. You are the ultimate multitasker.You don't have much of an attention span for anything. You like things short and sweet.You can't help but let everyone know what you're doing, even if it's just what you're having for dinner.You are big on sharing what's going on in your life. If anything, you share too much!

• What Kind of Fast Food Are You?
You Are a Donut
You are whimsical, creative, and expressive. You love anything cute and colorful.You believe in living for today. You enjoy yourself and don't hold back. You are driven by your inspiration.You never know where each day will lead you. You are a unique, offbeat character. People find your unpredictable ways charming.

• Are You Right or Left Brained?
You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

• How Bitchy Are You?
You Are 38% Bitchy
You're a pretty sweet person, and you're definitely not prone to bitchy outbursts. Sometimes, though, you can't help thinking mean thoughts about people. But at least you don't act on them!

• What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence
Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time.,You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it.,Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

• How Much Pride Do You Have?
Your Pride Quotient: 59%
You have your proud moments, but you're also likely to be a little ashamed of them. Don't be too hard on yourself. It's normal to want to make a stellar impression.

• Are You Extremely Sensitive?
Your Sensitivity Score: 70%
You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

• What Kind of Friend Are You?
You Are A Loyal Sidekick
You aren't the most visible one in your group, but that's okay. You're always up for a good time or conversation. And you stick with your friends no matter what. You're unbelievably loyal. You may feel under appreciated - but it only seems that way! Your friends would be lost without you.

• What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
You Are a Thespian
You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.
Your strength: Your warm heart
Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions
Your power color: Black
Your power symbol: Musical note
Your power month: February

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Well, now you know how bored I am. Time really passes slowly today. And I'm listening to Ricky's hilarious audio now, haha. :) I feel hungry and all that stuffs. There's sectionals tmr and I'm kind of sick of those people who are like asking obvious questions. It's so irritating. Really. I feel really tired and hungry now. I don't know why. :/ Don't feel well at all. I think I'm going to fall ill really soon.

To do list after Os: (that's like 1 year more)
• To take up guitar lessons
• To learn to kayak

What we know is not much. What we don't know is enormous.

so beautiful

2009-06-15T12:58:00.000-07:00

We went out yesterday to that isolated karaoke lounge and sang yesterday. It was rather fun, with crazy people like HS, lol. Just kidding. Anyway, it was okay, just that YL just kept quite throughout the whole session. I realized that I love to use the word 'session' and it's sometimes irrelevant to use it. but I think it's okay. at least you know what I'm saying. :) We took photos after that, and hope that HS don't post those horrendous pictures of me. :/ I think I'd rather die than to look at those photos, argh.

I hate this.

strawberry

2009-06-12T21:05:00.000-07:00

A random title for this post, like again. I wanted to post after choir camp, but I totally had no mood in doing so, and that's why I'm only posting after LTC, which makes me feel more lethargic after choir camp. My eyes were red since the last day of choir camp and starting of LTC till now. I can feel the stinging pain in my eyes and it's very uncomfortable.

1) Choir Camp 2009
It was a success, I guess. I mean, at least most of the choristers are really bonded, even though our committee just lack of something - communication. The games were successful even though we encountered some problems like out of bound area, which we had to change it last minute, maybe 1hr before the games, but it was still a success overall. I think the people in games department really worked together as one, Doreen, being the games i/c, AunnNing and PeiKheng thinking of alternatives and wild games ideas, and I, for typing the proposal. The facial game was kind of boring and mundane. Sorry people. Many things that I thought of just couldn't work. I didn't know how nightwalk was as I was busying washing the canvas sheets with Doreen. OMG, we felt a serious sense of achievement and were so proud of ourselves after washing those huge canvas sheets okay. It was so difficult and challenging that we did not even care about the detergent on our bodies. But I think nightwalk should be quite fun even though it should be scary instead of funny. Haha. I also didn't really get to know what's going on in orienteering as I was the station master with Estee for one of the games. OMG, and the feeling of waiting for a group for 1hr sucks totally. In the end, only two groups came to our station. But it was okay, I guess. Talent time was quite a success, just that there were some chaos, without the i/c there. But I'm totally impressed with Sandra's performance that she could actually manage, for she's only a sec two. I think she has done her best, and that everyone could see that. If there's a best committee member, it'll definitely be her, for her outstanding performance. I would like to take this opportunity to say that I am a person who don't need or even want the limelight from anyone, and I'll never snatch it away from anyone. I just don't like being the limelight and that's the reason why I'm always at the 'backstage', doing all those stuffs that people do not usually see or appreciate them. But I'm totally fine with it. As long as people enjoy the things that we've plan, I'm okay with it. I'm saying this not because someone snatch the limelight away from me or something, but I just feel a little insignificant in choir. Overall, I really love this camp, and that everything we planned turned out quite well. But I'll never want to wash canvas sheets again.

2) LTC' 09
I would really say that the sub-committee really improved a lot after the debrief on Day 1 of the camp. They really took the initiative to ask for something to do from practically every department like F&B, QM, and many other activities. And I think that this group of sub-comms was really great. At least there isn't someone that I didn't wish to see (or maybe just one), and I enjoyed working with them. As LTC was only two days away from choir camp, all choristers who were involved in LTC were very lethargic. I mean, I'm really tired and even till now, I feel fatigue. But at least I'm a busy person and I enjoy working like this. (okay, that's weird) And for the next two weeks, I'll probably be working on SS project, Chinese project and E Math project. I think I'll have no time to rest. Well, that's life. Alright, stop sidetracking! Haha. Anyway, Ornatus won the best group! YAY! They were great, and their dance got full marks of 100 from every judges! It was indeed very impressive. I think that Tyrannus's performance was also great, just that there was some difficulty in the PA system. Anyway, Emerson is quite nice! Haha, at least I got to know someone new. A great achievement! Lol, just kidding. Anyway, the committee is nice, except for some people. Melvin's funny, Jiang Li is hilarious too, lol. FAs like Zerlina and Mavis rock and I love to listen to their debrief sessions with their groups. Oh, talking about debrief sessions, I actually fell asleep accidentally when I just closed my eyes for about 3 secs, OMG, that was scary and it was unintentionally, really. Btw, it's quite obvious that the session that I fell asleep wasn't Mavis's (Ornatus) or Zerlina's (Tyrannus) cos their sessions were the ones that I would never fall asleep as everyone was engaged, even me. (I was only supposed to help and don't really have to say anything) Anyway, thanks Samantha! *winks* Lol, a secret that only she, Mareenah and I know. Please don't spread it. (ironic, haha) And for the whole of the camp, my eyes were half-opened and the feeling of going for a camp while being so fatigue totally sucks. You'll have to run around, walk distances even though you're tired. And if you're like me, you'll probably lose your balance and fall into the sea while trying to stand up for the boat (kayaking session). LOL, it was so damn hilarious as I said I had a 'water confidence test' in the middle of the sea, haha. I don't know how to swim okay. :X Lol, and it was so embarrassing! But nevermind, at least something for me to remember and it serve as a hilarious memory. Haha! :D And for nightwalk, paired up with Aloysius and we were one of the safety instructors! It was funny when some people got frightened by us even though we didn't do anything. But the insect bites sucks. Overall, I really love the camp, even though I'm in the F&B Department, haha. No more please, no more! *crossed-fingers* I also love this camp even though it was very tiring. It rocks. Btw, I think GREEN brings luck in LTC cos last year, Triton got the best group award, and this year, Ornatus got it! Lol, that's so random. But both groups rocked. :D

3) Obviously, after going through both camps with only 2-day interval, I've become a healthier person (lol), and I'm totally tanned. (even my sister say so, as my face is even more tanned, lol) OMG, the difference in skin tone is huge totally! And after falling off the boat while kayaking, I've got myself some bruises and they also serves as memories, lol. And I pulled my leg muscle while sleep just now! OMG, it totally 'shifted' it's position okay! Damn pain. And now it's aching, ouch. But it's okay.

I ♥ CAMPS!

Very entertaining.

hiatus

2009-06-03T21:16:00.000-07:00

CHOIR CAMP'09

5th June to 7th June

Well, just hope that everything turns out well. I really don't know what to say here. Just feel rather disappointed. I have a feeling that I can't be SL anymore. Just hope that it's a false alarm that my mind is giving me. And someone seem to be more interested in other group rather than his own. I can't say anything, or things will definitely go wrong, or I'll be blamed for everything. I feel useless.

Understanding. Who truly understand others? If everyone understand one another, there won't be any wars or conflict, and earth would be like heaven. That's why I don't really expect much, but to expect the best out of everything. I'm a very picky person, but I can't help it. This is just simply me.

I find it quite disturbing for some people to keep using the word 'shag'. I really don't understand. Is that word so cool? And the worst part is that they totally misunderstand its meaning! OMG. For example, some people said this: "Aiya, A Math and Physics were to shag." Wow, that's so "cool". I suggest these people to check the dictionary before using the word 'shag'.

I've just heard a song by Ricky, and I love it so much. It's rather addictive, I think. :) And this is a good thing cos I've added another song to my 'favourite' playlist! Okay, I shall get some rest as tomorrow is going to be a long long long day. Have fun people!

Some things do not need to be explained.

tug of war

2009-05-29T21:42:00.000-07:00

1) Friday, May 29
Today you may have to brush up on projecting confidence that you really don't feel, all in the name of getting ahead. You may find that a setback you suffer is really short term, so pay it no mind. You will only make things harder by worrying, and worry will accomplish nothing.

Well, just a random post from facebook. Actually, it's not random at all. I just... love to take a look at it when I'm on facebook. I don't know, but I'm rather superstitious.

2) Today, was an okay day. Just that my ass hurts from about 4 hours of sitting, ouch. I mean, I didn't move at all. It's ridiculously boring. There's practically nothing for me to do. After sports day, Doreen and I went to eat subway, and had meeting with Aunn Ning and PeiKheng. Well, I hope it turned out well, cos we spent a lot of time planning the games, thinking of the best possibilities, and I'm serious. Hope the games won't be 'shot at' again. I think you'll understand what I say. But I think this kind of things is inevitable. Well, that's life.

3) I just hate people who are biased. Damned. Why can't people treat one another equally? I just don't get it. Yes, I do treat people different, but at least I'm not biased. Not like someone, who's obvious biased towards another person, which is so obvious that I think even Ricky can see. It's so frustrating, and I shan't talk about thing anymore.

4) Hectic schedule for everyone, and I'm going to report it.
Sat - LTC Trainers' Camp, Sectional, Sun - Outing to look for camp stuffs, Mon - Meet up with t-shirt guy, Trying out of games, Sectional, Tues - Sectional, Choir, Thurs - Buying of camp stuffs, Camp starts till 8th June.

5) Well, I finally know what's loneliness. I finally felt the sense of loneliness during sports day, when I'm sitting with no one by my side, or to be precise, strangers by my side. I feel so, ... dumbfounded, I would say. Is everyone is isolating themselves from me, or is it the other way round? I really don't know why I have this kind of feeling. I'm going to meet the t-shirt person alone on monday.

6) I realize that for the past few posts, i kept starting with a negative, sad, emotional, feel-like-dying tone and ended with a rather optimistic tone. I find this rather weird. it's like, I keep thinking positive when I end, and when I start the post, it's back to the square one. Omg, what's wrong with me? I think, I shall really find some ways to make me a happier person.

7) Anyway, one thing worth to be happy about is that I'm excited about choir camp again! I don't know, but at least I think that our games are going to be memorable, hilarious, interesting and whatever you can think of. :) YAY.

8) You will be emotional about your personal life. Secret intrigues could get you into trouble. Try to take care of the needs of those you love. Use your head and do things to your liking.
Your lucky day this week will be Saturday.

Another random post from facebook again. Maybe I shall follow it and I'll be happier. Really hope that tomorrow will be my lucky day.

What do you do?

escape

2009-05-28T23:13:00.000-07:00

1) I'm no longer excited for choir camp. I mean, it just stopped about few hours ago. This is the worst thing to happen. How can we expect campers to be excited when we ourselves are not? I guess that will be it. The games will be uninteresting and not memorable at all. I just hope the games work, since objective/aim is the first priority. Well, I have nothing to say. I'm not complaining or whatever. It's your choice to think if I am or not.

2) Hope that choir tee will be settled asap. I just hate irresponsible people who thinks that it's fun when people are chasing after them, for whatever, consent forms, t-shirt sizes, and even meetings. Like, wow. I'm still quite happy with my group, although some people are always MIA and what's not. We've at least settled on group name, identity, and intro. Quite interesting. :) Something that's worth smiling for, haha. I'm rather proud of them as they are doing a really good job.

3) I just don't get it why some people are just like that. I bet someone is unhappy as we're having another meeting tmr just to think and brainstorm on games that Ms Yeo said. I've totally nothing to say. It's like, the games are not working and hence we have to think of other games. Here, this person just agreed reluctantly to go for the meeting. I can see that you're unhappy okay. I'm not dumb. Well, you can just don't come. We don't really mind anyway. We can think ourselves. This is really frustrating as I don't get it why some people can be so... whatever. I don't want to fight about this. It's not worthwhile. I don't give a damn if you read this or not. (I think there's only 1% you'll read this) I just think that you should reflect on yourself more.

4) I think I'm not a friend to you at all. I'm just a company seriously. Someone you would rely on to take bus and go home with you. Someone to rely on when you want to eat with a person. Someone to rely on when you are bored and needs someone to talk to. Someone to rely on when you feel like gossiping about others. When are you there for me? Do you even know that I'm not feeling good? No. You have your real friends whom I think they're much much more important than me. You're the one I trust the most and this is what I get.

5) I tried to cry but I realize that no matter how much I try and squeeze the tears, none came out. I think I'm just tired of all this crying and stuffs that I have no more tears. Maybe I've changed. To be even a more cold and emotionless person. I cannot be blamed for this, really.

6) Today's committee meeting was totally unexpected. I don't know what to say. This is a choir camp. I think the games are going to be... disappointing. Trying out the games and having department meeting tomorrow. I don't know if I'm going to flare up or something. Just hope that I won't. I shall control my emotion.

7) I talked to someone. Not my so-called friends, but my mom. It's rather unbelievable, as I used to think that she'll never understand what I'm always doing because of age-gap. But I'm actually wrong. I've spoken to her for many times, I feel that she give the best advice, and she's the one that make me think clearly all the times. Maybe, I should talk to her more, even though sometimes she may be too overprotective. But I know that she cares the most for me, other than my dad and sis.

8) Sorry to say this, but I've kind of lost my trust for some people. I don't know why. I just feeling that, I'm drifting apart from this world, from everyone.

9) Haha, the t-shirt supplier totally make me laugh. I named the person "T-Shirt" as I don't know what's his name, lol. And it's like, t-shirt sms me, lol. What the hell, I'm so damn lame. Anyway, it's something worth smiling/laughing. :D

10) Ricky has updated and that's another thing that's worth the smile, lol. He says that he's working on new album, and that he loves eating dumplings, haha, same as me. He's playing wii again, and he's thinking of the ways to improve his skills, haha. But his post gave me a motivation to continue what I'm doing and not give up. Although there may be some obstacles that are affecting me, I know that I will succeed. I'll do my best, even if others don't. Haha. I feel so motivated! Thanks to RICKY!

Hello, world.

rotten banana

2009-05-25T22:18:00.000-07:00

Such a random title. But who cares? Everyone is too busy to care. Actually, I don't know why I'm blogging here, when I'm supposed to like, do proposal, or at least go through the scores before sectionals start tomorrow. Just finished Bowling comp. posters, and well, not really nice though. But I really can't think of anything to add to it. Today is a tiring day. And so will tomorrow be. :/ This is though man.

1) LTC Trainers' Camp was rather expected. It didn't really turn out well. I mean, I didn't really do well. FYI, I never say that I didn't enjoy or whatever, cos I know that this is a camp and it is supposed to be though. I failed to do something, and that it clearly proved that my reaction time is 3secs while others' are 0.3secs. I totally hate my slow reaction time. It's... stupid, foolish, or whatever. I really don't know what to say. It sucks to be like this. I'm dumb, I'm blur, I admit. I bet many people are very unhappy of me. I think it's cos of my face (wth), my actions and reaction. Damn it. I hate this totally. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone, I'm really sorry. I hate to do this to. But this is me, and I can't change. If I can, I'll probably choose to be like Ricky. (?!) I mean, his actions, his words, his, ... kindness. I've got to learn to be kind to others. (I'm just wondering, when am I not kind to others? I just appear to be unfriendly, that's all. I have no evil intentions or whatever) I just feel, depressed. And to add on, I've got millions of mosquitoes bites. (just exaggerating) I have lots of them, that I look as if I have chicken pox.

2) I don't know why, but God just seem to be playing with me. He knows that I'm feeling bad enough and well, continues to add on to the troubles I already had. Mid-Year was devastating. I failed english, like wow. Even though I'm quite happy with lit, both sections with 17/25, it still doesn't heal the wound. I scored A2 for Chinese, with 38/40 for oral, surprisingly. I failed english.

3) That's not the worst. I've got a feeling that everyone is running away from me. I don't know why, I don't know the reason, but everyone is running away from me. I can't take it anymore, I'm too tired. Nobody seem to be there when I needed them the most. Especially this person, who's obviously angry with me, or something worse. I can't do anything as I don't know what I've done wrong. I'm just going to keep quiet and wait for everything to settle down. God is seriously playing with me. Media Player is on the 'shuffle' mode, and it's playing all sad songs that make me think of the sad things. What's happening to me?

4) I finally understand why I named this post this title. My life is just like rotten banana, with everyone stepping on it, and nobody bothers to pick it up and at least throw it away, as it disgusts people. Am I like this? I really don't know.

5) I have a sudden feeling of not going for the Prague Trip in December. I don't know what to do. If I don't go, I'll disappoint quite a lot of people. And I think Doreen is probably not going cos HS is not. Well, I'll have to accept life. I mean, my life. It's just like this. I'll have to accept it.

6) Being in sop two makes me feel... uncomfortable. I don't know what to do. I really hope that Mr Toh won't kill us tomorrow. I really hope that Soprano can really memorize their scores and help us, at least. I would really appreciate it if they all go to the sectionals tomorrow. I won't give a damn really, if they don't want to go. I'll just slap them. (just kidding)

7) I feel that if I don't stop this anymore, I'm probably going to go crazy. Maybe I shall think of the brighter side: choir tomorrow, learning new song - o magnum, (probably), and I'm going to listen to Ricky. I really hope that this can be over soon. I hope.

8) Maybe things aren't as bad as I think. I'll be positive, maybe, if I can. YAY YAY YAY YAY!

Tired of everything.

disappointment

2009-05-22T22:36:00.000-07:00

Maybe someone should just tell me what to do. I'm really confused and I'm not feeling good either. Am I just trying to hard to smile? Am I holding back my tears? Am I trying to act as if I'm emo? Okay, I think I shall stop being lame. The answers to the second-last and last questions are no, obviously. Why do I have to act emo, or why do I even want to cry? Crazy. But what's with the world nowadays?

I wouldn't want to mention mid-year. I failed history, even though I got a 'good' on my paper for one of the comparison questions which I got 6/7. Well, SS was rather unexpected. 13/18 for source-based is quite good for me. But I don't know if Ms Poh marked leniently or something. But nevermind, at least I passed. I got a freaking 4/12 for history essay. Like wow. Great job. Physics, omg, 66%, and what-the-hell. Chemistry Section A, what-the-hell, 25/45. And I thought it was easy. Well, unexpected things happens. Okay, I now realize that it's quite contradicting, as I've said that I wouldn't want to mention mid-year, but I've just said it out. Haha.

Choir was indescribable. We've learnt Jingle Bells and Deck the Hall, but both songs turned out, well, expected, sucky. Sorry, there isn't a word like sucky, but it just sucked. And I'm totally disappointed. I feel like killing myself. Why am I so useless? I don't know what to do. And I've transferred to Sop Two. Please don't mistake it as I don't like sop two, or whatever. But it's just... uncomfortable. (although i was from sop 2 initially when in sec one) And the feeling is... really different. Whatever, I'm not going to talk about it anymore. And wow, sectionals is going to be on mon, definitely. Cos tmr both HS and I can't make it, and I don't know. Maybe I shall ask for help.

And tomorrow is LTC Trainers' Camp. Okay, I admit I'm lazy. But with this kind of mood, I totally have nothing to say. But I'm still going it, as I'm responsible. Okay, lol. But I'm feeling no-good. And well, this sucks. Hope tomorrow's camp cheer me up at least a little, and choir camp cheers the remaining of me up. Okay, the sentence structure looks weird, but I don't really care. :) - finally, a smiley.

Anyway, thanks for those who cared. And those who don't, I really have nothing to say.

"I seriously think that she's more important than me. If you think so, then I have nothing to say. Since she's so important to you and that you chose to go with her instead of me, then I'm really, really disappointed. What you say in front of me and what you say in front of others is different. Totally different. I think it's a different story. Or is it me dreaming that you're that good to me? I really don't know."

Sorry if you hate me now, but I have nothing that I can do. I'm not in a good mood at all. :'( I'm sorry, really. Maybe Ricky will do the trick.

bygones

2009-05-20T11:56:00.000-07:00

I've just read some posts of the past, like in nov 2007, and so on. Lol, that's so long ago! I keep thinking that I'm still a sec one in 2008, as I have many posts. And in one of the 2008 posts, I saw something like, "didn’t go in the end cos Marc wanted to go to Ikea with Paul and the other sec twos" I then realized that we were sec two in 2008, lol. It's not STM or something, but just, ... memories being mixed up. :) But the feeling of reading these posts is great. (especially the ones on syf) I still feel nostalgic though :/

I feeling kind of... bored, cos I'm practically playing the comp for whole day, unless going out or school. Anyway, today is marking day so we shall keep ourselves excited! Lol, we'll be going to minds cafe later. Hope we'll have fun, and hope that I didn't get the timing or the pricing wrong. :X Alright, but I reckon it would be fun. :D

Ricky, Ricky, Ricky!

What's with you?

cape no.7

2009-05-19T22:17:00.000-07:00

I've just watched 'Cape no.7' and it's so damn nice! I didn't quite get it initially as the story is rather,... confusing. And they spoke mostly in hokkien since it's a taiwan movie. It's quite a nice movie, and it needs a lot of thinking, lol. That's why I didn't answer it at the beginning.

Anyway, today is the last day of mid-year! And tomorrow is marking day! Hahaha. Discussed camp stuffs till about 2++ today with Paul ,Yiling and Marcus. And all the storyline that Yiling thought of was so funny+stupid. Hahaha. Expected from Yiling though. :X Just kidding. But yay, at least night act, orienteering and games are ready! Muahahaha, and the choir tees are gonna be ready soon! I mean, quite soon, haha. :D

Veggies & UCP blog is rather fun. More fun than UCP's old blog, cos it's dead, haha. But yea, more involvement among the members, haha. :) I quite like the feeling of blogging there! That's why I blog 4 times there and only blog once here. Haha, not because I'm biased or something, but this blog here is precious and I should only blog stuffs that are regarding me, and those stuffs that are important to me, like... haha, Ricky. Lol, and Veggies & UCP blog is somewhere you can blog about anything. Haha, I dare you people to scold anyone there! :X Just kidding, I'm not that evil! Anyway, hope the blog goes well!

And... Choir is resuming this friday!

It's a yay for me cos we'll get to go to bbt after that with veggies! Yay, looking forward to it! (Hope that it's not canceled, postponed or something)

As for Ricky, he didn't update and obviously, he's busy. But I'm still listening to his songs! And he videos rocks, especially his MVs. Haha, so cute. :)

What's the world?

not a friend

2009-05-19T10:02:00.000-07:00

I've just realized that I'm not a friend, but a company to everyone. In short, a stupid loner. A stupid loner who just sticks with everyone. This sucks totally. I hate this.

back in time

2009-05-16T20:23:00.000-07:00

All these photos bring back memories exactly one month from tomorrow.
17th April 2009.
(for those who want these photos, please go to my facebook and grab them)

Joanna & Nisya

Joanna, WeiQing, Sheri, Kodi, Nisya, Lynn & Georgina

WeiQing, Lynn, Kodi, Marc, Paul, Doreen & Nisya

WeiQing, Joanna, Kodi, Lynn & Nisya

I kind of miss the veggies, even though I see them every day. :/ But it's okay! choir is resuming next friday! Yes! And after choir, veggies (and ucp) can go bbt and bitch bitch bitch just like before SYF! YAY! I'm so happy upon thinking of it. Haha.

Following are just some random photos.

'B' Keychain. Ain't it gorgeous? I love it! I don't even know who this is from, or rather, I forgot the name of that sec 2 guy. Despite the fact that I do set duties, lol.

我是你的消防局, yay! I love this song man.

"I hate these" Lol, 100% random! I drew this by the way.

Yummy ice cream! Yay! So nice, right Doreen and Marc? :D I wanna have them again! YAY!

All these memories are so beautiful that I'll never want to forget them for life, if I have the ability.

PS: I kind of like Twitter. Add me here! :)

If I have one wish...

back to wordpress

2009-05-15T22:14:00.000-07:00

I know it's very frustrating for me to keep changing from blogger to wordpress, and from wordpress to blogger, and finally I'm back to here again. I think I won't go back blogger anymore. This time for real. Cos there's nothing I can do at blogger anymore, and I no longer create any skins. Well, I've just watched 'My Wife is a Gangster I' recommended by Doreen and it was very nice. I totally love the plot. Anyway, I have been recently watching some very nice shows, like 'Maidens’ Vow', and 'My School Daze'. I don't know, but I'm beginning to like Singapore's Drama more and more, ever since I watched 'Made in Singapore'. And obviously, I love HK dramas more than ever. 'Maidens’ Vow' is a show that's so unexpected and I just simply love it. Alright, enough of dramas. :)

I've just updated my biography page, and I just erase somethings off. I've finally knock some sense into me these few weeks, away from computer. Firstly, I don't want to achieve "my level position 17" anymore, as the person I should compete against is myself, and the person I want to surprise is myself. As long as I've made improvements, it means that I've become better, and that' enough. :)

And now, I'm going talk about the mid years. Well, it was okay. But Chem was so unexpectedly easy. Just hope I would fare well and I won't fail ever again. :/ The feeling of failure sucks man, totally. Seriously, who loves the feeling of it? Haha. A Math, Physics, and Lit were disappointments. Oh, and Chinese too. O-M-G, Chinese paper was hideous. I can't seem to describe it with words, just OMG. And the rest, I shall stop talking about it or I'll probably cry in front of the comp. Anyway, mid year have knock some senses into me and I've finally got things clear. I've figured out somethings in life. (wow, sounds so profound, lol) And... I'm kind of addicted to tv dramas, lol. And that's a bad thing.

Just yesterday, in YuLe, Show cried. Omg, this is the second time seeing him cry! Stupid reporters! He's not a pervert and he's filial by natural. He cherishes his kins more than any one of you, stupid reporters and writers who do not have the guts to mention who you are! Grr, I'm angry and sad for Show. He's really working very hard, and why when an artist is working very hard, no one talks about it and when one has done something "wrong", which is not what Show did as he was only trying to make friends, they make a big fuss about it? Damn it man, this world is unfair and we'll have to face the reality bravely. But no matter what, I'll trust Show and support him! :)

Currently... What am I doing? Lol. I'm currently addicted to Green Day's 21st Century Breakdown. It's nice! I mean, I don't know why I just love it. It's kind of rock, but it's nice. You should listen to it. :) Currently, I'm sitting in front of the comp, typing this, talking to Marc on msn, waiting for Doreen to reply and etc. Well, kind of tired and shall talk more tmr! Good night.

It's never too late to improve and amaze yourself.

missing

2009-04-23T21:01:00.000-07:00

Yay! There's finally time to blog! I obviously went to Ricky's blog the moment I on my comp and he didn't update. You know what? I'm rather happy that he didn't update, cos I'm not free to check and on my comp every day to check for his updates and I hate missing his updates. :) Okay, contradicting, but nevermind! :)The second thing I check is obviously facebook and msn! Lol. :) Then it's my own blog. But it seems like it's dead. :) Haha, probably dead a long long time ago. Oh well~

Lol, it was so funny. I was in my parent's bedroom just now, and I just went crazy and shouted "GOLD WITH HONOURS!" in the room, when my mom was there. She was like, "Wa, how much does the GWH cost? Hundreds? Thousands?" And I was like, "No! You can't buy it with money. you can't buy happiness with money okay." She replied,"Wa, so expensive ah?" Lol, this is stupid, but yea. You can't buy happiness with money! And so is friendship!

I... kinda miss the veggies? Omg, it's like, only less than week and I'm already like this. Argh, this sounds real corny okay. So I shall stop it or you'll puke. But look at this:

Like what Nisya said on facebook, no matter how weird/funny we look, we're still one big big big family! <3 I think this is the first and last time veggies and ucp can take photo together! Omg, :'( I love them totally. Lol, but I look so bangla in that photo, and marc's head looks kind of... cut off? Lol. But I was happy, really...

See! I'm laughing! Lol, just kidding. I don't look like crying man, totally. Lol, why is HS staring at me like this? I feel so embarrassed! Haha, but I was feeling nostalgic and happy!

Yay! Qing, Nisya and I! <3

Purple tee! <3

Haha, both random photos from the Literature Learning Journey~ It was fun with PK, Cheryl and Paul! :) Okay, I look retarded, so bash me up. :)

I really really miss veggies okay, even though I'll still get to see them every day in school. Today, I met EVERYONE OF THEM. I think it was fated or something. I met Lynn, Qing, Nisya, then Sheri. And I was like, "Will I see Joanna?" And so surprisingly, I saw her right after school. I was like, omg! And saw Kodi too! It was really so fated. And nevertheless, I see every ucp, of cos. :) I guess today is my lucky day. (not according to that horoscope thingy) I'm happy!

Ricky rocks once again!

Our best.

can't believe

2009-04-18T10:57:00.000-07:00

I still can't believe that this is a fact. It's like, it had happened only yesterday. Like, all the things happened so quickly. The moment we shouted 'KASAR' for the ending, I knew that it was the end of SYF. We finally can do whatever we want. To be precise, to eat whatever we want, which is otherwise known as food paradise. I'm kind of not use to eating fried food and stuffs, drinking fizzy/cold drinks and stuffs like that. The intensive practices we had has ended like this. It's kind of nostalgic to think of the past.

Okay, crap. I shall stop talking about this cos it sounds like I'm a sec four and I'm leaving choir. [-.-] GYH was acting like an idiot yesterday. Wth, shut up and no one will say he's a mute.

Anyway, going out with marc and doreen later. I kept asking lynn and others whether they want to go out and I think they're kind of pissed with me. I kept asking as they never give me a reply. Well,...

Somethings are meant to be like this. We can't change it.

overflowing joy

2009-04-18T00:02:00.000-07:00

Choir 37, Dunman Secondary School... GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

The best line of the day, week and whatsoever. Today is the best day of my life. Woke up at 4.30, exercised and went to school. Was nervous, but the moment we were on stage, I couldn't think of anything, but just to perform and touch the hearts of everyone. And after four months or more of practices, we did it. Finally, we did it! I just cannot explain how happy I am. It's like, I was grabbing qing's hand like mad when they started to announce. And I totally screamed like hell when we got Gold with Honours. Like, omg, am I dreaming? No, i'm not, this is reality. Even though we were a little rushed for dravidian, I think we did our best, and it was very nice. Kasar was hair-standing and, you know.

Lol, spent most of the time with sec fours, veggies. Sorry for not spending time with ucp, and not having my face appearing in the photos, but yea, cos this is the last time they're gonna be in choir and I just hope to spend more time with them, and you know, have fun, scream, talk, talk, talk, and last but not least, bitch. However,our bitching session ended halfway. But it's okay! :) I'm happy!

Delicate this to the sec fours:
"I know this sounds a little weird, but my gratitude towards all of you cannot be expressed. We, the sec threes, including me of course, were young and ignorant when in sec ones and you all were the ones who guided us all along, even till today. Although we may be rebellious and have some stupid attitude problems sometimes, we still thank all of you for all the things you guys have done for us. We've obviously grown a lot, and this is thanks to all of you. Without all of you, the sec fours, we're not going to be shaped like this, and our attitudes towards choir would have never changed. We've truly learnt a lot from you all, and of course, we hope that we can be as good as you guys. Thanks for all guidance and I hope you guys will get your desired goal for each and everyone of you."

Lol, it sounds stupid, but I'm not good in words. So, nevermind! Yay! Probably going out tmr and I'm feeling excited! KBOX to sing till our voice break! Lol, just kidding. But really I love singing, and I totally love dmnchoir. WE LOVE DMNCHOIR, MR TOH, AND ALL OTHER PEOPLE WHO SUPPORTED US, INCLUDING ALUMNI AND THE TEACHERS.

I don't know what to say, really. It's like, time passes so quickly before we realize it. It's.... so fast. I only have memories of sec ones, sadly. I only remember syf 2007, tour 2007, i believe concert 2008, and syf 2009. I hope that I can go tour again, but I know the feeling is definitely going to be different. :( I really will miss you guys. But, I really want to say thanks, to people like, Weiqing, Lynn, Joanna, Kodi, Nisya, Sheri, Georgina, Iris and many others. Sorry if I didn't mention your name, but please don't think that I think you're insignificant if your name doesn't appear here. :) I would really miss you guys. :( I really hope that I can turn back time. I don't want you guys to leave..... :'(

DUNMAN GOLD WITH HONOURS CHOIR!!!! ♥♥♥

6 more days

2009-04-12T00:25:00.000-07:00

Argh, obviously, I'm counting down to the days left to syf. I'm feeling nervous! And nevertheless, there's sectional tmr! [>.0] Lol, what's with that face? Alright, today is a long day, so I should just faster post and sleep!~

Went for the lit learning journey. I thought it would be like the usual LJs where we would be required to jot down notes, do worksheet etc, but I was proven wrong! Lol. All we had to do was to take photos, sing songs, and lalala~ It was fun indeed. Lol, and we didn't eat mcdonald's for lunch like what others did okay. We're loyal to choir and we ate some high class sandwich which cost about six bucks going to seven. Lol, thanks ms cheng! Anyway, I really hope that the teachers can see that we're really involved in this fieldtrip and not just to go there and do nothing but just take photos or whatever. But I really learn to appreciate literature more, and that I love literature! I mean, it's different from studying biology and stuffs, as you study the human body, and systems in bio, you study... hmm, literacy in literature. Lol, I know this is retarded, but I just don't know how to explain it in words. Maybe I should say, literature makes you understand the world better, in terms in literacy and not like, geographically or something like that. Confused? Then nevermind. :)

Then we returned school at about one, and went for ltc meeting. I didn't expect it to be long, but it was, lol. But it was okay! Not too dry as I thought it would be. (again, lol)

And after meeting, went to study with doreen at cc again. Hey, and I've done my homework, revised a little of a math and lit okay! :) Yay, accomplishment! Lol, I'll just stop acting lame. And there's choir tmr! Woo~ I love choir practices! :D But something just totally pissed me off. [-.-]

I just don't get it why you're like this.

to-do list

2009-04-10T20:25:00.000-07:00

Well, I hope to accomplish these things as far as possible:

• Study (as much as possible, as there are many tests in the following weeks)
• Gold with Honours for SYF (of course)
• Complete homework (including chinese workbook, journal and a math)
• Go to PastaMania
• Eat chocolates
• Watch a movie
• Go Kbox with doreen and marc after mid year

If you know what I'm thinking, then do it.

8 more days

2009-04-09T21:04:00.000-07:00

I can really feel the tension and seriousness of syf. But at the mean time, there would be 7 tests, which includes english, chinese, history, ss, chem, a math and lit tests in the following weeks. Wth man. SS, english, and history are subjects that do not need to study. And I'm left with chinese, chem, a math and lit. Wow, great. I mean, all these are nothing as compared to the work that the sec fours are needed to do. Okay, so I shall not complain. But I just don't get it why some people can be so free and 'has nothing to do'. Wow, you're smart man, indeed. But actually, to be honest, you're not at all.

Wa, I'm damn pissed, as expected. I think you should be expecting me to post this. But really, my first time ever getting my name into the detention form. I was damn pissed. I did my work for your info, but just didn't hand it in cos I though it was another piece of work. And there, smiling, I went into the class with a good mood this morning, with PK telling me that I'm down for detention. Wow, what a great day to start with. (sorry for the sarcasm, but really) *Sigh* My name will never be canceled and it'll remain there until next year. I'm not like, blaming anyone, cos I know that I'm the one to blame, it's all my fault for being some foolish when I've copied every homework needed to be done in my notebook. How ironic. I'll have to end this paragraph by saying that "Today is so not my day." But it's okay. It's not that I didn't not do my work, it's just that I don't know when to hand in. Believe me.

I've just log on to facebook and went to 'my calendar', and it states that my lucky day is tues, which was the rehearsal. I would say that I was rather lucky, cos mr toh changed our position and I quite like standing beside the two superior people, iris and georgina. Haha, although sometimes I couldn't even hear myself due to the loudness of georgina, I still like that position. :) Not too front and not too back. However, we didn't really performed that well that day, so... But yea, haha. Here's what it says:

You may be offered opportunities that will result in a higher earning potential. You will do best to entertain those you wish to close deals with. You can expect the fur to fly on the home front. You may need a physical outlet that will help you relieve your tension.
Your lucky day this week will be Tuesday.

Wow, physical outlet can relieve my tension. Haha. I've no comment about this, but yea, do check out yours cos I think it's quite true, too a certain extent. :) I slept immediately after reaching home just now, at I woke up at about 6:40pm. Yea, I'm a pig, lol. But I just couldn't wake up. I needed my mom, haha. Well, tmr is good friday. Yay, a rest day cos I'm not a Christian. However, I'll still pray for the success of choir for syf to get GWH! :D Yay.

I'll probably study that whole day tmr, as I have a busy schedule. It's like, there's lit fieldtrip and ltc meeting on sat, then choir on sun? Yawn. I hardly have time to study. :( But it's okay, as compared to the sec fours.

Just finished redesigning the choir tee, and just hope that it would turn out fine. I would be embarrassed if it don't. [>.<] Oh, speaking about embarrassment, I did my oral on monday and it was.. so funny. I felt rather embarrassed cos I actually said "fears" instead of "fear". Lol, and throughout the whole presentation, miss wong was like, staring at me? Haha. I felt so nervous, but I know that I did better than last year definitely, lol.

Anyway, I just hope that some people can be more sensitive to the people around them. It's like, to you, this world is it only made up of you, you and you. It's you and others. Think of others when you make a decision. It hurts sometimes to think that you're so inconsiderate. I shall not touch on this anymore, as I think I don't really have the right to say this. But I just hope some people can just keep some personal comments to themselves, since they're personal.

Alright, time for Ricky! Lol, he didn't update, as expected. Cos I think he's as busy as us! Lol, not tat he has any competition like syf, but he has a hectic and busy schedule like us. :) So, I'll only watch his videos and listen to his songs. :D Once again, Ricky Rocks!

Jiayou for SYF people! 8 more days only! We can do it!

13 more days

2009-04-04T11:19:00.000-07:00

13 more days to syf. Time passes really quickly. It's only two more weeks to the 'V' day, like what ms yeo said. I just can't believe it that we've practised for four weeks already, can you? Four months ago, we were singing like @$*%%*@*%$ ?!. Not trying to say that we so damn good now, but we've improved, definitely. Learning is an experience that everyone will go through, whether good or bad. 3 weeks ago, we went to RI for the exchange and we knew we did badly, but it is something we cannot change, the past. There's one thing I cannot seem to understand. Why do we always seem so restless and perform badly during sectionals? Take note, I said we, and not they, meaning... I'm also a little restless during sectional. I think this is quite obvious, although I don't really say anything, and my voice is always monotonous and boring. Lol. But I'm learning to change okay. I am. Something you shouldn't expect from me is to hear me speak in a high-pitched voice or something like that. Lol, cos I'm born with a low talking voice. Too bad, I don't like it but it can't be changed, unless I use a fake voice, which I would probably puke if I do that. Okay, enough of this, I think you're getting sick. Haha. :)

Yay, going out with doreen and marc to CC (community centre) to study later. I think you're not so dumb to realize that I've bold the word 'cc'. This is because I want to emphasize that I'm not going to restricted places like mac (omg, you'll be killed), shopping malls, and whatsoever. And furthermore, we're going there to study. (and probably camwhore if we can) Lol, and we'll be having or brunch or lunch in the hawker center near by. I will assure you that it is so damn hot there, that the bugs and germs there will be killed. So no worries, we won't fall sick. And of cos, the food we'll be having would most probably be soup stuffs. Alright, enough of food.

I'm currently blogging cum facebook hopping and I feel rather embarrassed as yesterday, ms yeo was talking about people who go on facebook and do quizzes instead of sleeping. Lol, I think I'm one of the obvious ones, but I'm not the most obvious ones, haha. Cos I think paul is the winner of this 'competition'. But I didn't do any quizzes yesterday okay. I just went and posted 1 musing. Haha.

Well, got to go and bathe and go out now! Sayonara!~

I love the way you are, so don't change.

what's going on

2009-03-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

I've decided that I shall blog today, since tmr is the starting of school day, all over again. The boring lessons and etc. Oh yea, the timetable changed, like again?! Grr, but there's nothing to grumble about as it's unchangeable, lol. I woke up this morning feeling damn confused and blur. I was wondering why am I still in bed when I'm suppose to go and pray. And wow, my family left me at home and went to pray themselves. And now, they're back. Zzz~ Quarreled with my dad yesterday and he insisted that I have to go and pray, and have lunch with my relatives, and don't go for sectional. What the hell. I wanted to go and pray but I just don't want to have lunch with them as I don't want to miss sectional! In the end, this was what they did to me. Well, irony, life is full of ironies.

Having a combined sectional later at 3pm at iris's house and wow, I only got to know it like, a few minutes ago from doreen? Ha, how blur I am. But at least I know it before it starts. :) I wonder how it's going to be like. But it seems serious. With georgina, I think no one will screw the sectional up? Or make themselves fools? Lol.

Life's rather mundane for me. Yesterday's meeting was... alright. At least it wasn't as dry as I thought it would be. :) It was okay, but I'm in the F&B department, again. OMG, is it because I love to eat or sth? Lol, just kidding. But it's probably due to the fact that I was in that department for sec one camp. Well, ...

Can someone help me or sth, cos I totally suck at saying 'sorry'. But I don't know why I'm in the wrong. For being too sensitive? If it's it, then I can do nothing about it cos that's me. I can only say 'sorry' which I totally suck at it, and try not to be sensitive anymore. But I just hate irritants, sorry.

Maybe I'm really at fault. I'm sorry.

Will you remember?

living wthout time

2009-03-28T07:14:00.000-07:00

I don't know, but my watch spoiled on wednesday and I was totally uneasy. The feeling of living without know the time sucks man. It's like, living your life aimlessly? Lol. So I'm going to buy a watch on sunday after praying and sectional! Haha, new watch man. But seriously, I cannot live without watch. Like wow, was it fate that made our class clock spoil too? Haha.

Today's practice was okay. but we improved, yea. Especially for white horses for sops. I think we will most probably improve in dravidian after know the mistake. And kasar was okay too. Just that... hmm, pitching problems? :| Sectional on sunday! I am seriously getting the "feeling of SYF".

And like wow, I really think english lessons are worse than before man. I'm not complaining, let me repeat myself. It's like, the whole class wants miss ong to come back. Please, who don't? I'll kill that person man. Just kidding, but I think english lessons are not productive. I haven't learnt a single thing, fyi. Grr... The rest of the lessons and subjects are okay, especially literature! I love lit man! <3 It's like, even though it's the last three periods of tues and wed, I wasn't bored at all? Haha. I'm totally interested man, unlike the chem lessons we had in the past..

Argh, there's LTC meeting tmr at 130. Yawn, I wonder what they're going to talk about. Those usual things? I hope that I'm not in department like QM/F&B or something like that again. I mean, I have nothing against it, but, it's... you know.

Ricky have not updated his blog. I guess he's busy~ Well, he should be like, going everywhere to sing? Haha, jiayou Ricky! I really love his songs!

And jiayou for SYF people! :)

Maybe you don't know why I ignored you. But you didn't bother to ask.

school reopen

2009-03-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

School's reopening tmr. Like, omg? I've done all homework, but I have no mood to go to school. :( I feel so bored. But yea, cannot escape from it. I really hope that school days would be better. The first lesson is chem. *faints* You know why I say that, do you? Nevermind if you don't. And wth (again), our english teacher changed. I've no idea who are those teachers, and I just hope that they can be as good as Miss Ong, at least. But I think that my hope would be dashed. I just hope that there would be some miracles in life. :)

Well, went for a haircut just now. And it makes me feel weird~ Ah, nevermind. I'm watching the cute video again and lol, just can't stop laughing, haha!

Lol, I was watching some videos yesterday when I saw Ricky in one of the taiwan variety show. He was playing "请你跟我这样做" and he said "他马的" unintentionally when trying to form a new phrase. It was like, lol?! Everyone practically laughed and the guy next to him thought that he was scolding him, lol. He was like, "有错吗?" (Anything wrong?) And everyone laughed crazily, and he explained why he said that. HAHAHA! It was so hilarious.　

Okay, I'm going to pack bag!~

I don't know.

memory loss

2009-03-22T10:21:00.000-07:00

My father reformatted my computer and now, everything is cleared, but I can't seem to open the duty list format and some of the bookmarks are gone. At least I still get to find some bookmarks and remember them, but I can't open the duty list! Damn it. It's like, my comp is suffering from memory loss or sth. *sigh* How? I've asked him to help me install the 2007 Microsoft Office and now, he's like, ignoring me?! Grr...

I've just read some of Ricky's past posts and he's like, so optimistic in everything he does? Haha, the very first post he posted was on 2006? Lol, so long ago. But, haha. Anyway, just look at the number of people who visit his blog, like, 1778090? Lol, plus one cos I was there. Okay, I'm being lame. But he rocks man. I just hope that he can recover. :D

Today's sectional was... tiring, as usual. I've nothing to talk about it, but I just hope that we can really do well.. And one more day to school reopen, and wth, they changed the timetable. Assembly is on wed, and eww, chem is on monday, first period. Why must it be the first period?! To let me suffer and die upon receiving the paper?! Wth. And omg, Miss Ong is no longer teaching us 3C english, wow, great man, I'm gonna fail. :( Argh. Why must they change our english teacher?! OMG, totally OMG. Argh, screw the timetable man, it looks very weird.

I just don't get it why people do some things just for fun.

painful

2009-03-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

Painful. The performance just now was painful, totally depressing. I'm not going to say how other people did, but I know that it was definitely not my best and I sucked. Maybe sectional was not serious enough. But hey, it's wrong to say that it wasn't serious enough as georgina actually became quite angry. So was I. I was damn pissed during dravidian and it was... horrendous. Nothing could explain my feeling, and I think only suern and qing understood my feelings. It's like thousand knives stabbing into your heart. Okay, lol, this is lame and it doesn't really hurt that much, I'm only exaggerating. Okay, and there's sectional tmr at seven. I hope this time is really seven, not eight. I don't want to be an idiot anymore, haha. (or at least I read the message carefully, haha.)

Okay, seems like there are to many haha-s in my writing. I shall stop it, or you think that I'm actually that happy. But I'm not that sad either. I've thought to myself this:

We should not keep thinking about the things that has already happened. We should think of the future, something that we can change. The past is something that we cannot change and we must treat it as a learning experience, whether it is good or bad. so, let's work even harder, and more intelligently to achieve our Gold with Honours! :)

Yay, I feel better after writing the motivational paragraph. Haha, I know that we can do it, it's whether we want it or not. It's whether we want to achieve the last 5% or not. :D Must be positive and not be pessimistic! :)

We should think of the future, something that we can change.

what the hell

2009-03-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

Grr, I'm still so angry cos firefox just doesn't work. Like, damn it man!

Went to tm and ehub just now with doreen just now. We discussed some camp games in starbucks and we actually thought of some fun games! (hopefully they are really fun) We actually wanted to go to kbox at ehub but in the end, due to the fact that I'm rather broke and that my mom don't really sounded please, we went back. :( But nevermind, we'll go in the june hols! :) Definitely! And we'll have all kinds of food after syf! Hahahaha. :D Yay, excited!

I don't know what's wrong with my mother.

If you've realized that I'm treating you differently, look at yourself in the mirror.

good day

2009-03-19T05:50:00.000-07:00

Yay! I'm happy today! Applause please. Haha. Choir practice rocks totally today. So was sectional. Let me explain in details. Today, went to ate lunch with doreen. We were late for sectional, and so was the others, lol. Started sectional at about 1:20 and it went on. I finally realize that I am of use in sectionals and not someone who going to sectionals and do nothing. Then it went on and blah blah, and I realize that I always make a fool out of myself when leading sectional, lol. But I think it's okay. Haha. Then it was choir. It wasn't that bad I think, I'm not being complacent, for you info. But we all needs to be recognize when we've put in our efforts and done something well, don't you think so? Okay, so choir was okay, even though he didn't really praise soprano. But there are still room for improvement, haha. :) Yay, I love sectional today for the first time of my life! Yay! And facebook rocks! *jumps in enthusiasm like nisya and lynn*

Grr, but I'm still not very happy cos firefox still doesn't work. It's like, so irritating? My father installed something in my comp and now firefox don't work. I'm now trying to uninstall somethings. Zzz~ It's so boring.

Lala, tmr is a break day -- no choir, no sectional. I wonder what I should do tmr. Omg, I really don't know what to design for the choir tee. But nevermind! Inspiration don't come easily, you have to look for it. Haha. So I shall listen to Ricky's songs! Lol, just kidding. But his songs give me inspirations! :)

I've just left a comment on Ricky's blog again! He said that his friend will be performing in a concert and he's helping to advertise. Lol, but too bad I cannot go and watch even though he'll be there cos I'm in Singapore~ Haha, lol. He's just so funny~

Lol, and congrats to marc as he found his phone. Thank godness, there are still good people in this world, like Ricky said. Lol, that random person picked the phone when he was going to work. How honest! :) I'm so glad that marc found his phone, and what Ricky said was proven correct. :D Yay, and that's why, Ricky rocks!

Lol, I shall stop it. But I really hope the rest of the choir practices and sectionals can be as good as today's. I'd definitely love it! :) Happy!

I've finally see some light.

aching legs

2009-03-18T06:47:00.000-07:00

Went cycling with marc, yiling and wanjing just now. Lol, had fun too. Please again, we didn't consume any food that we're not suppose to. I ate fishball soup noodles, it it extremely healthy, fyi. I've realized that we took many buses today, and WanJing took the most as she needed to travel from one place to another. Haha. Okay, I'll stop being lame.

Hope that marc can find his phone soon. Oh, btw, I was being scammed of 10 bucks on 15th March when going out with marc and doreen. Marc was also being scammed. I won't talk about it anymore cos I'm in a good mood and I don't want to ruin it. Haha.

Going to memorize the details for Kasar now, and hopefully, we can do better tmr.

Maybe I'm not as good as her, but please treat me with equal respect.

hardworking but not smart

2009-03-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

Went to somewhere fun with doreen and marc yesterday. Really had fun and I wanna do it again! Aw, too bad paul, you weren't there. Okay, stop it, I'm being a bitch. Well, quite "busy" these few days cos I keep going out to play. But please, I'm not eating any food that are not supposed to, okay? But yea, really really had fun yesterday, even though some people stood up on us. Haha, just kidding. Please, not blaming you guys, but just kinda sad that you guys missed the fun. (I really wanna go mind cafe!) After SYF, we shall go : Pasta Mania, KBox/My house/that ullu place, all junk food restaurants, mid cafe, and this list goes on. But I should not be too happy cos SYF haven't ended. Haha, here are some photos! : (some are super outdated cos... I was too lazy to upload them haha!)

Nisya and Lynn's Valentines' Balloon! :)

Mummy, I really studied for chem, really. Okay, this is super random. But here's a proof that I really studied.

Debbie and Nisya at RJC for their concert! :)

Take One : Muahahaha, I looked taller than Doreen! HAHAHA! I won.

Take Two: I'm still taller, Doreen, too bad. HAHA.

Okay, I'm acting short okay. HAHA.

Lol, being lame. In fact, Doreen is really taller than me. :) I'm not that bhb, btw. Haha. Omg, having sectionals at seven tmr, then have choir camp meeting, then probably going out after that. :) Going to camwhore again! Woo~ With marc, most probably. I can't wait for SYF to end!

If things aren't the way we want it to be, just let them be. We'll change instead.

aftermath

2009-03-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

The aftermath of common test. It has finally ended. But I'm feeling no good. chem paper was the most disastrous for me. It's ironic as I spent most of my time studying for chem and I'm going to fail it. But nevermind, let bygones be bygones and I shall talk about other paper. Phy was surprisingly okay, so was history and ss. I love the 3rd day the most simple because e math and chinese were rather.. simple? (i think) I'm having high expectation for these two subjects and last but not least, a math and lit. Just hope to get at least 18 for it. :D

Okay, since it's the aftermath of common test, I shan't talk about it anymore. I should talk about... (drum roll pls) how I discovered that the sore throats I'm always getting since young, is actually called Tonsillitis. Okay, I think you won't give a damn about this cos it's something trivial, and it will most probably not relate to you. But for your information, Tonsillitis is the inflammation of tonsils. This is a long term illness and it'll not be cured unless I remove my tonsils. Which is likely to be impossible for me to do it now, cos I think one will not be able to talk for some time after removing the tonsils. *sigh*

Okay, the topic on Tonsillitis is also rather saddening. So I shan't talk about it either. Let me talk about yesterday's RJC Concert! Yay, it was very funny and nevertheless, mesmerizing. Lol, I like the P.U.N.C.H the most cos it was simply entertaining. Haha. And Sheri's obsessed with a guy who was acting as a tree. Lol, I thought no one would notice that guy, even though I noticed him, haha. Okay, I'm being lame. But seriously, the concert was fabulous.

I'm excited as we're going to Mind Cafe tmr! Yay, excited.

Each time you act in spite of fear, you discover even deeper, greater courage.

dear me

2009-03-01T03:34:00.000-08:00

I didn't blog yesterday as I forgot to. I was exhausted of the long week. Tests, Homework, Choir, Choir, and Choir. Okay, This is retarded, but nevermind. I realize that I'm always tagging my post with 'random'. Argh, nevermind, I'm talking nonsense. Anyway, life's quite tiring for me.

We born crying and we die laughing. What is this implying? Life is a torture. The moment we're born, we have to face difficulties and challenges, which are tough and most of the time inevitable. We laugh when we die as we're all freed from this torture for eternity.

Omg, what's that? Is life really a torture? What do you think? I think not so. Life is a beautiful creature. Many failed to realize how beautiful it is until they see the 'light' and the motivation of life. Have you seen your 'light'? If you haven't you'll have to be more observant. Haha. Just kidding. Oh my, I really don't want to turn this blog into a motivational blog, even though I kept telling Paul that, "My blog is a motivational blog okay, not like yours." Haha. Just kidding.

Lol, bought a headphone which is exactly the same as Marc's, but it black in colour. It's so light that it seem as if there's no pressure on your head. Haha, why am I advertising it? This is dumb.

Life is a beautiful creature.

think happy

2009-02-24T06:29:00.000-08:00

Yay! My first time blogging using my phone! Not quite used to it though. It seems weird and it is super tedious to type like this. But nevermind, for testing sake. :)

Omg, the audition for dravidian is tmr, mind you, tmr! I'm nervous, scared, worried and excited. Mixed feelings, understand? Lol, got bday present from ucp they all and I appreciate it very much! Hahaha. I love it very much.

Aw, Ricky is going to China in a few days time.. Hope that he can have fun there and not stress himself too much. He had been working very hard for the past two months, and it is finally time for him to rest. I remember that he said something like, "We need to rest to travel longer distance and reach our destination, so resting is essential." Haha, how true. Duh, he's my motivation okay. Lol, enough of it. Stay happy, Ricky!

That's all, going to sleep, my hands are aching. Haha.

We need to rest to travel longer distance and reach our destination, so resting is essential.

who i am

2009-02-23T02:19:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was fun, I did nothing but play and eat yesterday. How I wish yesterday was my birthday, instead of Friday. But somethings just don't happen the way you want to.

I've gotten a 'B' cookie from Joanna yesterday! I'm so happy haha, it's delicious, even though it's broken! Haha. Then went to watch the teacher's concert. Haha, it wasn't a disappointment even though the ticket is only 5 bucks, compared to the freaking 20 bucks in sec one that year. Omg, it was damn funny. We laughed like hell. As usual, Mr Bernard was funny. Unexpected appearances like Mdm Tan and Mr Kang & Mr Sim and last but not least, Mr Mah, were so so so funny. But the singing was, hmm.. HAHA. It was fun.

After the teacher's concert, went to help out at class' stall. I helped like, 30mins and some bitch just snatched the job away from me. And please, I didn't spoil the blender okay? It'll stop automatically when it gets heated; you wouldn't want it to be caught on fire, would you? Damn, I felt extra and stood behind the stall for like, I-don't-know-how-long.

At 1+ went to Mind Cafe with Doreen, Paul and Marc. Haha. It was fun, and I wanna go there again during the March holidays! Yay! Excited. The 'Dirty Game' was damn funny, and yea, we played Taboo. It was fun and lalala~ I'm too lazy to continue. Then went to Sakura to eat. I really wonder why people pay to make their stomach suffer. That's so stupid. I felt like pucking after eating so much, but nevermind, I was happy yesterday.

I first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning is : Homework. damn it. I only have 1 day, no, less than that to complete that. And I'm now blogging. How ironic. Yawn, but nevermind.

Happy Birthday Doreen!

I realize that I haven't been listening to anyone's song except for Ricky's.

If things don't go my way, I'll try it the other way.

happy birthday to me

2009-02-21T06:03:00.000-08:00

No matter if it's a good or bad day, today will still be my birthday...

I'm one year older. I have to be more understanding. I have to be more hardworking. I have to behave like a fifteen year-old as I'm no longer fourteen years old. (although it don't really make a difference) I cannot be so stupid anymore and think that everything will go as I've planned. I hope that I can bring happiness to everyone instead of fear. I hope that this world can be better and there won't be anymore hypocrites, which is impossible as there are many around me.

It seems like my birthday has fallen on the wrong day. Many things happened today, and I don't bother to say anymore. I just hope that people who couldn't get into SYF will not be demoralized, as you're done your best. People who got into SYF, don't be too complacent and please do not mock at other people's misery for not getting in. By doing that, you're showing that you're not a nice person, and mind you, I hate this kind of people.

Today, people in UCP and veggies got in! I'm so happy for them. Hope they feel blessed and nonetheless, work hard for the next audition. :) Happy for them, and yay. To Lynn, Qing and Joanna, in addition of Adolphus, you all haven't won the bet yet okay? Lol. It's not over yet. Muahahaha. Means that I'll probably have a chance of getting 2 bbt, 1 waffle and 1 fries! Hahaha.

I'll still have to thank these people for whatever they've done: (not in any order, and drumroll please!)
Weiqing, Lynn, Sheri, Joanna, Nisya, Kodi, Paul, Doreen, Adolphus, ChengTing, Marc, Yiling, HweeSze, Benjamin, Marcus, AunnNing, PeiKheng, WeiTing, Reena, Isabella, Georgina and Iris.

Thanks guys. you guys are really great.
Weiqing - Never fail to make me laugh. Your singing rocks man, and I'll definitely miss you.
Lynn - Second person to make me laugh the most. Without you, I don't know what will happen.
Sheri - This crazy person who'll always slap me and try to make me laugh, and she'll always succeed.
Joanna - The second crazy person. Quarreling so much but they're friendly, everyone can see.
Nisya - One who never fails to smile and brighten everyone's day.
Kodi - The second one who'll always smile irregardless of anything.
Paul - What;s there to say about this person man?
Doreen - Bitching sessions work the best with you.
Adolphus - You and CT will always accompany me to go recess!
ChengTing - You've probably done too much research on food.
Marc - Taylor's die hard fan who never fails to company you.
Yiling - Another crazy one but funny too.
HweeSze - Great minds think alike and we're the ones with great minds.
Benjamin - You'll never be not pissed when asking him questions.
Marcus - Your 'Happy Birthday' shocked me, I didn't expect you to say that. Thanks.
AunnNing - Your company for whole of sec two is greatly appreciated even till now.
PeiKheng - Your guidance in class is greatly appreciated by me, really.
WeiTing - Sitting with you during Chinese lessons is a joy.
Reena - Heart-to-heart talk works the best.
Isabella - Your birthday message left me a deep impression.
Georgina - Your enthusiasm shocked me, totally.
Iris - Your birthday wish and backing up for me is greatly appreciated.

Things about 2009 birthday:

Birthday Messages
• Ranking of birthday message:
Weiqing, Lynn, Sheri, Paul, Isabella, Joanna
• Funniest message:
Sheri's 'Happy Birdday'.
• Most touching message:
Weiqing's 00:00am message.
• Most sincere message:
All messages are sincere, please.

Verbal Wishes
• Ranking of Verbal Wishes:
PeiKheng, Weiting, Paul, Jorim, Vanessa, HweeSze, Doreen, Marc, Adolphus, Benjamin, Marcus - OMG, Weiqing, Georgina, Iris

Birthday Present
WeiTing and PeiKheng's cookies. They're simply finger-licking.

Why do I remember these? It means that I cherish these. :) So be glad. and lest but not least... ... ...

I did love you, but maybe it was just too quick.

100th

2009-02-15T05:40:00.000-08:00

Oh, I had nearly forgotten to blog, due to the fact that I was setting duty and searching for Mr FireStation's songs. They're so nice~ And I think there are going like, 23 going to 30 songs of his on my music player? Lol. The songs are freaking nice, and I've listened to every single song of his albums? (even hokkien songs?!) Okay, I think I should stop it, haha. I realized that he actually composed every of his songs and that he had just bought a mansion (or something like that) for his mother. How filial can he be? His next wish that he hope to accomplish is to cure his eyes. Hopefully he can see the beautiful world one day and I believe that he can. :) Good luck Ricky. You'll succeed.

Sectional was at nine today and I was late. I feel rather bad but nevermind. Haha. Went to have lunch with HS, Qing and SuErn after that at EastPoint. We were like bitching like nobody's business all the way? Lol, but nevermind, I think no one heard us, right?

I think that's all and I'm too sick to blog anymore.

I'm not perfect.

black friday

2009-02-14T05:11:00.000-08:00

Today is 13th of Feb and it's a Friday. I've known a few months ago that this day is going to come. We had audition today. Yes, SL audition. And I screwed it up. It was a failure for me and I suck. But seriously, if HS don't get into SYF all because of me, I'm so sorry and I'll probably do something about it. I really hope that I can get into SYF. Alright, enough of emo-y stuffs. But thanks those Usual People (not ucp lah) who cheered me up like Sheri, who tried her best and I laughed in the end, Paul, who asked me to stop yawning (I cry when I yawn), Lynn, Joanna, Weiqing, Nisya and Kodi. Love you guys loads, and I hope these sec fours can get into SYF or I'll have lesser chances of seeing you guys. :( I am really not looking forward to that day man. I don't know who am I suppose to go home with, and etc. I can only depend on myself during sectionals and have nobody to talk to. *Sigh* I'll miss you guys seriously. And I really wonder why I am not born two months earlier. I don't mind if I was born in Dec, seriously. At most I spend my birthday with Sheri. :) Haha. Sheri is crazy and funny man. She made me seriously laughed out loud. I think she was the first to make me laugh after the depressing audition.

Paul, can you please stop it? It's not your fault and I went out of tune not because of you. I went out of tune because of myself okay. Please stop blaming yourself and push all the blame to yourself (?!) Nevermind, but just stop saying that "I hate me", "It's all my fault", or any other things like that. Stop it or I'll slap you in your face, seriously.

If that's what we get, we should accept it and face it bravely.

hope for better

2009-02-12T05:10:00.000-08:00

Two days to Audition Day, and still counting as time flies by. I really don't know what will happen. Will I be kicked out? Will I go out of tune/out of beat/sing wrong lyrics? Will I be selected? I just hope for the better.

Anyway, had chem test yesterday and phy test today. I studied a lot for chem test and didn't really studied for phy test all because I was complacent. I'm mad with myself. Chem test was okay, but phy test was a horror. Firstly, I didn't bring calculator to school. Secondly, there are many questions that required complicated calculations. Like wow, I'm going to pass. However, I think I did well for almost every questions in the paper except for the calculations questions. So I hope that I'll at least pass. I've learnt my lesson seriously and I won't be so complacent the next time. :|

Alright, I'll stop all those things that have been affecting my mood for the past two hours. To think of the bright side, it's two days to Friday - my favourite day! 1) Lessons end at 1230 on that day. 2) Only teachers whom I like are teaching on that day. (Mdm Tan, Mdm Rohana, Miss Ong! - They rock.) 3) The next day is Sat - Valentines' Day. :)　4) And there's obviously, Choir! Hahaha. I seriously love Friday.

"Why?" is the greatest question on earth.

其实我也不知道

2009-02-08T01:21:00.000-08:00

你的眼光其实我都感觉得到
有些事情本来就很奥妙
无心的玩笑　故意挑剔的争吵
都是爱情的前兆

你的眼泪其实我也感觉得到
有些事情真的很难预料
爱情的面前　我们真的太渺小
应该怎麽说才好

其实我也不知道　其实我也很苦恼
其实我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了紧紧的拥抱　谁能承诺天荒地老
我的苦笑　是否你能明了

其实我也不知道　其实我也很煎熬
其实我也想过放弃一切什麽都不要
缘份如此美妙　却又如此困扰
是欢笑迷宫　又像寂寞监牢
让人只想逃跑

嘿　谢谢你对我那麽好
我　常常觉得无以回报
爱　就是这麽微妙
它无法强求　它出现的时候不必寻找

unbelievable nightmare

2009-02-07T05:21:00.000-08:00

You know things are driving me crazy. I mean, school work can still be cope, but, somethings are just crazy. Like:
1) There are 3 tests next week. - I'm disappointed with my emath and amath test result. emath - i got the sign wrong and it caused me 3 marks away from full marks. amath - i didn't fare well, b4, mind you.
2) There will be audition on the 13th of Feb for all SLs (Black Friday, mind you), which is six days away from tmr. - I think I'm gonna be the first to be kicked out and I suck. :(
3) There are two secrets which troubles me and I feel bad about it. - I'm trying hard to be normal and think that everything was a dream.
4) I just hate physics. I just can't do the conversion of units, and I'm totally bored of it.
5) I regret taking history, even though the history textbook is so 'chio'.

Despite having all these so-called my nightmares, I'll have to be grateful to have:
1) The Veggies - Though they are semi extinct, they still care for everyone one. And I thank them for being so patient to listen to all my mutterings towards anything.
2) UCP - Just wanna say thanks especially Paul and Doreen, you both know why.

Warning: The following content will be boring and you are allowed to leave at any point of time when you feel like it. - It's a description of myself done by yours truly, to make you know more about me.

I think I am a person who aims for perfection even though I am not that perfect. I always wants the ducks to be in my row and if there is anything or anyone who prevents me from getting what I want, I will get mad. I am a very sensitive person. I take criticisms more seriously than I take anything else, be it praising, etc. I will always remember what a person say to me, and if you say something about me, for instance, "She's very fierce!" I'll forever remember you. Not that I want to take revenge on you or something, but whenever I see you, I'll try my best to improve. However, if you praise me or say nice things to me, I'll probably forget it in a few days time unless it's something special like, "Happy Birthday!" or something like that. I'm weird, you can put it like this. I'm seriously not as fierce as I look, really. I mean, I don't want such a look too. Even my normal, emotionless face looks scary. It's that sad?

Okay, I think I've said enough. Today, many things happened. And I'll forever remember how Sheri slapped me and I practically kneeled on the ground cos I laughed too hard. Lol, it was funny. Then I thought that she was funny at the same time weird when she sudden steps on my feet without warnings. Haha. Reminds me of Paul who stepped on my feet just to show how he accidentally stepped on someone's feet. Okay... Haha. It's finally Friday and I can blog. The cycle will soon continue in two days time and back to the tiring schooldays. I just hope time can stop and wait for me. I really don't want to go for the audition to embarass myself in front of the whole choir.

But nevermind, there are always things we look forward to. It's always to see veggies, ucp and listen to Ricky's songs and last but not least, friday that I'll always be looking forward to. 8) Still waiting..

We should believe in ourselves in whatever we do.

nothing is making sense

2009-01-31T05:17:00.000-08:00

Seriously, nothing makes sense. My class is getting more irritating each day and this sucks. I just don't understand why they talk so much, especially during lessons that the teachers hate noise, like a math. I feel that I really belong to this class academically, but I really don't enjoy being with the people. Most of them are nice, but you know, God is fair and hence, there will always be irritating people around. This is life, and we'll have to face it. But seriously, I just hope that the people can just shut up. My impression about that crazy person have not changed a single bit. I just think that she's crazy, as she thinks that everything is funny. -.- Haha. And yes, I just hope that teacher don't change our seating arrangement as I'm content (again) with where I am not. I can concentrate and not be drifted away.

Well, I'm going to repeat myself, like, "I cannot blog every day as I do not have the time to do so." But the moment I on the computer, the first thing I'll do is to go to Ricky's blog and check for his updates. Haha. Apparently, his latest one is on 25th of Jan. He's probably busy, I guess. The second thing I'll do is to come here, and blog, definitely as I only can blog once a week. Then I'll go to youtube to watch or listen to videos. Okay, I think it's hilarious for me to say, 'listen' to videos instead of watching them, but it's because I don't wanna watch and I only want to hear the voices. And after getting bored and blogged finish, I'll off the computer. Okay, I think I'll stop as this is stupid. But lol, I'm listening to an interview of Ricky now and it's damn funny. Okay, he's voice is like, super low? Haha. Okay, I shouldn't keep typing the word "haha" or I'll be just like that crazy person. But it's damn funny, so, HAHAHAHAHA! - It's like so funny, but I rather sympathies with Ricky as people around him are laughing like crazy when he sits there, not knowing anything. But he's damn funny whenever he speaks. HAHAHA, again.

What's life to you?

bloated

2009-01-26T06:43:00.000-08:00

Just came back from grandma's house. I'm bloated. I've learnt to cherish the reunion dinner. I've learnt to cherish everyone around. I feel that my cousins are so cute and my uncles and aunts are so hilarious. I suddenly realized that I only can see them once a year or so, during Chinese New Year. We used to celebrate Christmas, but since last year, we're can canceled it. I'm disappointed, yes I am. But I'll still cherish the time we have. No matter where we are, no matter how many people there are, no matter how much we love our ate each other.

I've just created a chinese blog! Not going to tell anyone about it's address as I don't even think that anyone is interested. :) But nevermind, I'm going to blog at two places at the same time. I'll probably get sick of it and delete one. Pray that I'll not delete this one or you'll have nothing to read! Haha. But I'm never gonna delete that chinese blog. I feel that it's another way I can express myself and furthermore, I can improve my chinese! Haha, how funny! Okay, not. Tomorrow is the first day of new year, and I'm gonna turn in late tonight! Hopefully I'll have a good night sleep as I changed my bedsheet by myself for the first time in 14 years! Haha, I'm so ashamed of myself.

As long as you're happy.

the eve

2009-01-25T20:56:00.000-08:00

Today is the eve of Chinese New Year! Haha.

Read Ricky's blog yesterday and wow, he finally updated on the 21st. And wow again, I'm reading his blog now and he just updated ay 12:11! 8) On 21st of Jan, he talked about how fortunate we can be to have scrumptious meals, while some other people, esp. those elderly and handicapped, have no food to eat, and they cherish each grain of rice like gold. He thanked many people for helping him and providing him with scrumptious meals and etc. He's blind and yet he care for others (even though it's not his problem), unlike those Taiwan government who are unaware and do not care about these people who have no food to eat. Even though he's blind, he's still content with what he have and that he cherish them a lot. Wow, so caring. And just now at 12:11, he talked about Chinese new year eve's reunion dinner. He talked about how happy he is to eat with his family, how cute the children are when they asked for red packets, and the "恭喜發財紅包拿來". :) LOL, it's so funny. And nevertheless, he still care about people with no food. Well, he's caring. He told everyone to eat happily and don't bother about slimming down etc, just eat happily with your family. And he even talked about how people tagged on his blog saying that he has gained weight. haha. He said he don't care about this as he thinks that "能吃就是福". Haha. So cute. I'm creating an account there and I've left a comment there! I'm the third to do so though. Haha. :)

I'll cherish everytime I have a chance to dine with everyone, be it family or friends. - inspired by Ricky.

Happy New Year Eve!

fly

2009-01-25T01:37:00.000-08:00

I really regret not buying iphone. It's like, a stupid decision to buy omnia. Okay, I'll stop talking about it. But anyway, today is the day before CNY eve? Haha. Okay. I'm gonna take pictures from tomorrow onwards till the second day of CNY. Going malaysia on the second day of new year to visit some relatives there. Excited! And tomorrow is reunion dinner. I don't know if I should say I like it or not. It's just typical steamboat with everyone's presence.

Omg, I have been listening to Ricky's songs for almost one month. But I'm still not sick of them. I still enjoy listening to them and these songs always make me happy. :) Okay, enough of him. Lol.

School's getting bored. My class is crazy. People are so irritating, especially those around me. They think they're great people. -.- Okay, whatever. And schoolwork are rather okay. I think the other classes' decorations are nice. But mine... Okay, I have no rights to say that ours suck or anything, cos I wasn't the one what provide ideas. But they didn't ask. So it's not my fault. I think the idea of using newspaper is too.. uh, out-dated. I love 2A's class whiteboard. It's nice, a big tv. :) Well, and about the class tee, I think my design is not going to hold there any longer. Different taste and ______ kept asking ________ to do the design. I think he hates my design. Oh, ______ and ______ are serious bitches. I hate them to the core. One of them thinks that everything is so funny. HAHA, as if. And the other one is just a flirt. I'm sick of them.

I'll never know.

finally

2009-01-22T05:00:00.000-08:00

There's finally time for me to blog. I was busy the past few days, and well, not really that free, but still manage to find time for blogging as there's only journal and a math which are needed to be handed in on fri. I'm not trying to procrastinate okay. I'm doing my journal, now. (?)

School's okay, but I'm quite sick of the class. I realize that the always make noise unnecessarily. Esp. during history classes when you can see how fed up Mrs T. got. Well, my favourite subject is gonna be History and Literature as I find them very interesting. (It's a little boring for History, but I like it's contents. Everything seem to make sense.) I don't really hate a subject now as there's no reason why I should. Hey, and I realize that I like doing journal writing. (?!) It's so, meaningful, I would say. Last year, we were being forced to hand it in before recess. And obviously, with so little time, I didn't bother to read, but just answer the questions blindly. (Oh, how could I?) But this year, the situation is different. We're allowed to hand in our journals on fri, which gives us more than enough time to read, and of course do with understanding.

I'm so glad that things are changing for better. But somethings are not, sadly to say. My understanding of this person is getting worse each and every day. I really don't know what's wrong with this person. Well, I'll talk about this some other day.

I'm feeling quite sick and tired now. (Probably because I didn't listen to Ricky's songs for like, almost 24 hours?) Lol. I'll listen to it later and going to do my journal! 8)

Do you have any idea how much you mean to me?

sick

2009-01-17T23:15:00.000-08:00

Damn. I'm sick, and down with fever, cough and sore throat. Went to see doctor yesterday as I'm burning. Woke up at about 12 just now, and now I'm still feeling tired. Damn. Why must I be sick a week before CNY? I'm damn pissed and I'm going to hate myself if I don't recover by CNY. I can't eat the nice food, understand? I hate this. It's ironic that I'm sick and I'm blogging now. But whatever. I failed e math quiz and have to go remedial. Damn. I rather fail a math than e math.

Dad bought a new cage for the hamsters and it has three levels. How fortunate can the hamsters be. Currently, we have eight hamsters, two parents and six.. babies? Okay, whatever. Had a talk with mum yesterday night, and understood many things. Perhaps going to 3C and take literature wasn't a bad thing after all. Literature make us understand things, really, without you knowing it.

Despite being sick, I feel happy as there are Ricky's songs to motivate me and make me feel better! Hahaha. I can never stop listening to his songs. I must at least listen to his songs once a day. Lol. I realized that I'm blogging at a very random basis and I don't have time, you see. And I'm currently sick. So, beloved readers (I'm talking to beloved ghosts), I can't blog that often. 8)

I'm going to do Chinese homework and English Compre!

Sometimes, things are just unpredictable.

too hardworking

2009-01-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

Monday
I boarded the bus and read physics textbook as there's a quiz tomorrow (tue). I read everything till the micrometer screw. I couldn't see clearly and put the book closer to my face. To my astonishment, the bus reached Holy Trinity's traffic light when I put the book down. (Past Holy Trinity BS) Like wow! I missed the stop. To prevent embarrassment, I walked back through the flats. (I don't even care if I would lose my way) Lesson learnt: Don't be stupid like me.

Currently
Okay, I totally mistook my class for being a quiet class. After the camp, they're like mad dogs, shouting across the class and so on. But it's still bearable, fortunately. I hate the handling numbers of physics, but other than that, I'm okay with the rest of physics. A math is... (speechless) today had E math quiz, I'm not sure how well I'll fare, but at least I know how to do the last question. (wth)

I'm still obsessed with Ricky's songs. Haha. I'll limit myself or I'll get sick of his songs. But I'm not at all currently! :D I love 左边右边, 其实我也不知道 and last but not least, 我是你的消防局! Omg!

I'll make you laugh and cry.

drown me

2009-01-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

Oh please, some people are just too irritating. and yes, I can't stand them as I think they're just attention seekers. If you think that I'm talking about you, you should do something about it. :) School's starting tmr and omg, I'm feeling tired, again. Argh. I heard that the CCA orientation or whatever you call that will be canceled. Oh well, if it's canceled, so be it.

I woke up at about 8.30 or so this morning. Quite early for me, and I don't know why I wake up that early. I guess I'm used to the timing of camp and all those stuffs? Yawn. Why?

If you really understand.

six feet underground

2009-01-11T05:46:00.000-08:00

Hey people (again, I'm talking to ghosts), back from camp. 8) I've gotten one infected scratch (I think) on my knee, and two blisters, one bleeding and one not. Like, wow, I've only gotten one mosquito bite. Thanks to the powerful insect repellent. Didn't get any leech, as you know, I've made prevention and moreover, PK prepared salt. Haha.

It was a rather great experience. I think the most interesting game was Indiana Jones. (And that's where I got my scratch) Okay, why do I sound like I'm doing a reflection? Okay, basically, had fun with the class. And lol, I just can't stop laughing at 'PK asking me if someone was talking in the middle of the night', and her "Mc Fillet" (Fillet-o-fish). Haha. It was fun indeed, but my class is still very quiet, despite the fact of having Mareenah and Paul in our class. Well, ironic.

I probably won't go back to blogger anymore.

I'm very tired.

Every day is a new beginning.

crying

2009-01-08T03:00:00.000-08:00

I kept crying during chem lesson today. Not because I was scolded by teacher (lol), but the lesson was straight three periods and I kept yawning non-stop. I think Mdm Salha saw. Lol. I kept yawning and rubbing my eyes cos my tears just couldn't stop flowing. (I cry when I yawn, so don't come to me and comfort me when you see me rubbing my eyes.) Haha. Alright, there'll be an E-math quiz next Wed. Good luck. I feel sick of the queue of the bookshop during recess! It's so long and till now, I haven't gotten my Compilation and Vocab book! Okay, heck care :X Oh, and 3C is just a freaking quiet class. I don't know if this is good or bad. I find it easier to concentrate, focus and study. However, fun... well, yawn.

If you really cared.

i don't know

2009-01-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

I really really don't know what to do. Finally have time to blog. Mind you, I'm busy readers. (I'm talking to ghosts) Firstly, I feel very heartbroken. Please, you're not so retard to think like, I'm heartbroken cos someone I like is dating another person, right? -.- Oh well, I just feel, depressed.

Okay, and secondly, I think that my class is, not that bad. Yes, better than 2A'08, satisfied? And I think the teachers are okay too. I'm only.. not quite used to Ms Chin way of teaching. Well, I miss Zhen Lao Shi :( Okay, sad to say, there are only two teachers I miss. 1) Mr Mah (hello, who don't?), 2) Zhen Lao Shi. Okay, you guys think that I'm crazy, but I really like the sarcasm of her! :| Okay, now about my current teachers, I think they're okay. Basically, I like Miss Ong's sarcasm (again?!) and accent, Miss Poh sarcasm and accent (again x2?!) and hmmm... I think chem lesson is a little bored. But it's okay. Probably because I'm tired. I don't know why, but I suddenly feel the motivation to study hard. Maybe because I've learnt my lesson? (second time mentioning this, but nevermind) I don't want history to repeat itself, really. I'm afraid that the same thing will happen this year. But I'm not going to let it happen again, I promise. :) I'm going to read chem, physics, and revise ss later! Haha. Okay, here's an update on events that happened these few weeks.

Sec One Orientation
Okay, like what HS said, this year's sec ones are not that enthu, but they're nice and fun. :) And see how Doreen loves the camp! Haha. Basically, it's tired and fun, ta-dah.

Mayday Concert
Okay. I should explain how I got the tickets. I didn't but them, but I got one pair of tickets for free, so I went with my sis to watch. Here are the pictures :) : (I collate all of them and blended them)

Haha. I did a bad job with it, but oh well. Initially, I didn't want to go in cos there are many people and I'm sick of the queue. But who knows? The queue was rather short haha. And the concert was fabulous! I love it very much. I'll buy their new album! Lol. But seriously, the lead singer's voice rock and you can feel the 'power'! Hahaha..

Choir Audition
I've no idea why I took so long to audition someone. (this sounds wrong, but nevermind.) So I stopped playing the paino cos I was too picky. Lol. but nevermind, funny incidents! Good luck to those sec ones, you won't regret joining choir!

If I'm alone, will you be there?

happy new year

2009-01-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is sec one orientation. I'm feeling tired now. Yawn. And school's gonna start in three days time. Wow, it's so fast. I really feel like dying.

Show's latest album is out! Woo~ I like the 第二顺位, it's so nice! He new haircut looks rather weird, but it's okay 8) Yay! I'm going to buy his album soon! I'm going to Mayday's concert this Sunday with my sis! Yay x 2! Okay, going to pack back for school! :)

Sometimes, I really feel that some people have skins that are way too thick. I mean, eww, I can't tolerate these nonsensical things anymore. And walao, like what effing rights to do have to call people what you want? Please give people some respect, and stop being so thick-skinned. You're not funny at all, and I feel that you're making a fool out of yourself. Well, please reflect.

A displaced little girl wept years in silence.

neutral

2009-01-01T04:11:00.000-08:00

Lol, but seriously, I'm neutral to everything, except for this one person who I should say, hate because this person's attitude totally sucks and stinks. A bootlicker, and teachers (who teaches her, and are bias) are usually blind, and see her a a "nice" student. Don't worry, this person is not from choir. People from choir are nice people, although they are crazy, just like Sheri 8)

Well, I really can't decide. Dravidian is a nice song indeed, and it's addictive. But I realize that we cannot reach the 'feel' and the standard that we're suppose to reach. Like, the mysterious (?!) feeling is not there at all, and I don't feel the groove. Lol, cos I'm a robot. Kasar is totally opposite from Dravidian. Although it may be difficult, we can produce it very well, and I love listen to it. However, ...

Today is the last day of 2008 and I'm rather happy, cos I'll not be in 2a anymore, and I'll be going to a class that is much better than 2a. :) Congratulate me! I'm not sure if I'll do well, but I'll definitely work hard as I've learnt my lesson. :)

New Year Resolution:
1) Study hard and get my desired level position
2) Be a better singer
3) Do well in Lit
4) Do well in Math and Science
5) Be happy

Bye 2008, I'll not miss you cos you left me with bad memories.
Running away from the past.

what brenda means

2008-12-31T05:21:00.000-08:00

You Are Lively and Courageous
You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Just a replacement.

mixed feelings

2008-12-31T04:24:00.000-08:00

Scared, excited, happy, sad; none of them can explain the feeling I am in now. But I'm feeling puzzled. Firstly, I feel excited cos you-know-why. And I feel scared cos I don't know if we'll screw up tmr (most probably, we will). And hence, I'm worried about this. Omg, listening to the song in repeat mode. Please, God, bless me, even though I'm not a Christian, I always believe that there's God. Really. Oh gosh.

I forgot that there's someone waiting.

hey hey you you

2008-12-29T23:36:00.000-08:00

Okay, yesterday's performance was.. awkward. I don't know, but the feeling was totally different from last year. There were more people last year, I think. So it's not our fault, I guess? Of cos not! We put in time and effort to practice this item for the performance. The sec threes did a great performance and yeap, they were great.

Yawn, 31st is only in two days. :| How is it possible?! And yeap, school's reopening in three days, and camp is on that day. I'm feeling tired already. I hate this and I think it's really stupid. Three days left to be on hiatus.

Tonight will be the night that I will fall fall you, over again.

antisocial

2008-12-28T04:45:00.000-08:00

Okay, tomorrow is sec four farewell. I'm not sure we'll do well for the performance. And I think I suck cos I just can't sing it. :| Grr~ But I'm still excited cos I'll be able to see UCP (duh) and veggies! Yes, and baking cookies tomorrow! So excited. Lol. Yay. And I've finally learned the chords of Bye Bye and pop version of Bleeding Love on keyboard! Haha. 8)

Everything's changing.

yes man

2008-12-27T06:50:00.000-08:00

My rating: ★★★★★
I think this movie is damn funny and I recommend everyone to watch it, esp when you're in a bad mood, or whatever, just watch it. I think that Jim Carrey is totally amazing. Lol. I love the movie seriously. I think it reflects on our real lives, and it's very true. The part when that old woman did something to him was so funny, and he can't say 'no' at the point of time. LOL! And I love the part when he sang to the man who wanted to commit suicide, and when everyone sang with him. Haha. He can sing well too! Haha.

Say yes not because you have to, but because you really want to.

my parents

2008-12-27T01:39:00.000-08:00

School's reception seriously suck man. Cos of the bad reception, I only receive messages hours after someone sent it. Like wtf. I can't even make a call.

Basically, today just went for practice (as usual) at ten. Turned out okay. Then that's all. Initially planned to go out with Lynn, WQ, and Sheri but didn't go in the end cos Marc wanted to go to Ikea with Paul and the other sec twos. Well, didn't go anywhere in the end. I just went home. I threw tantrum (unintentionally), and I was surprised that my parents didn't scold me for that. They knew that I wanted to buy a bag, watch movie etc, but it was somewhat ruined, so asked if I wanna go TM to buy. 8) I couldn't believe my ears, duh. I went TM, walked around zinc, etc. I spotted a bag I like very much in zinc, about 40++ bucks. In the end I bought a nike bag for 60++ bucks cos my dad prefer the nike to the zinc one. Lol. My dad paid for it, like oh my god. (unintentionally bought a sport bag cos my dad wanted me to use it) Omg, for an instance, I thought my parents rock, and I love them.

One word can change everything.

merry christmas

2008-12-25T23:46:00.000-08:00

Last Christmas by Ashley Tisdale is so nice. I seriously prefer her voice and her looks than Vanessa Hudgens and Lucas Gabreel's then Zac Efron's. Maybe that's the reason why I don't really like High School Musical in the first place. Haha. Well, no offense to Vanessa and Zac's fans. Well, different people has different taste, right? 8)

Today is Christmas but I don't really feel the jolly season or spirit. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe it's because this year, my huge family don't gather together and have Christmas Party like the past years. Yawn. I feel very bored and sad cos I don't have any present! I know! I should be like Paul, and ask for presents from my parents. Haha. Firstly, I'll ask for a bag. Like duh, I have wanted it for quite some time. :)

We wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year!

nostalgic

2008-12-25T06:51:00.000-08:00

I mean, I really can't decide. To leave blogskins, or not to. If I leave, I'll feel nostalgic. And the story begins...

I created a blog. It was plain and simple, with nothing, but words. I began to go to people blogs. "Why people has such nice page? (blogskin, you know, still a noobcake) Why mine is the plain one? Why?" I was wondering. Soon, someone, (I forgot who) told me to go to blogskins.com I obliged, and went there. I found one "page" that I love a lot and clicked on it. I clicked on preview. My jaws dropped. "So nice!" I went back to the description page again. But how to I put this "page" in my blog? Nevermind, I gave up, and went to play games. Weeks past, I blogged, and thought the same thing to myself. I went to blogskins again, not giving up, (although I said I did) and went to clicked on the 'Blogger Main' button. Something popped out. I was shocked at the number of words typed there. (codes, or what you call, template) I began exploring my blog account and found one huge space. "For typing, I think." I copied and pasted the whole chuck of words on the 'Template' section, and clicked preview. (I don't know why I did it, but it was an instinct) "Oh my god! I did it!" So nice! There, I learned how to paste a template.

I think I shouldn't continue the story or I think you'll find yourself waking up in front of your computer next morning. :) Well, I realize that just now that so called story has nothing to relate to blogskins Okay, but nevermind.

Let me explain (and summarize the whole freaking thing). Firstly, blogskins helped me to make me page different from others. Secondly, I edited a little of the codes, (like, bold, italic, underline, strike/line-through, etc.) when I realize the words on the preview template page and be found on the whole chunk of words, again, css. Lastly, it was the one that made me create ~~such beautiful~~ layouts (blogskins). Thanks a million, to blogskins.

And if I leave blogskins, I think I'll be a waste cos what I've learnt, be it css, codes, image editing, etc. will be wasted as I'm blogging with wordpress. Well, I'll stay. Okay, I think it's like, crap to you cos I must talk to much to come to this rather stupid conclusion of what to do. Lol. But nevermind. I'm like this, you know. Once again,

Thanks a million, blogskins!

Well, I'm getting excited about the Sec Four Farewell this Sun! Woots~ Another chance to not only see, but gather, talk, bitch, play, and what's not with both veggies and ucp! I'm so happy! Yay! Three Cheers and Three Cheers and Three Cheers for everyone! Hip hip, horray! Hip hip, horray! Hip hip, horray! Lol.
Brenda is lame. :)

We laugh too hard that it would sting.

half asleep

2008-12-25T01:32:00.000-08:00

Went for farewell meeting this morning at ten. I can hardly sit, squad or whatever actions that require bending. Like wth. It's as if I did 235353 chicken backsides. (only people who went for LTC'08 knows this) When I walking, I look like some elderly. I didn't want to go for the meeting as I'm not feeling well, but went in the end cos I know I would feel bad if I don't. Well, HS was sick and didn't come. The dance is almost done, but the singing is.. I don't know, but I could really hear anything. :( And there's meeting on fri and sat. Yawn. Tired Tired Tired.

Silent jealousy.

back from camp

2008-12-24T04:49:00.000-08:00

Yawns. Tired, aching etc. on thighs. Okay, I realize that I am slightly darker than before only. I wish to be more tanned. Lol. Okay, crazy. But fortunately didn't have sunburn. I think I'm like, allergic to grass or something? I mean, I'll get red itchy spots after contacting with grass for a long time. O-m-g, the feeling sucks man! Eww~ And yeap, definitely tiring. I think that Great Raid was fun! Yay for Nisya, Debbie, Lynn and etc.! I'm lazy to talk about what happened, so, that's basically it.

If shame has a face, it'll look just like yours.

camp tmr

2008-12-22T01:56:00.000-08:00

Lols, it seems so fast! Tomorrow is trainer's camp. Happy and sad. Nothing much to post, just that I'll be away for two days, 22nd and 23rd of Dec. Bye people!

I trust you more than I trust anyone.

conversing

2008-12-21T04:23:00.000-08:00

Yay! Bought two pairs of shoes, one wallet and one pencilcase for myself today! Dang~ Lols. Anyway, went bugis, aljunied fbt warehouse (it was closed) and converse warehouse with paul. :) We only bought things at converse warehouse as there's nothing much we wanna buy at bugis, (i tried to look for bags but there wasn't one I like), and the fbt warehouse was closed. -.- Grr. But nevermind. Spent about 70++ bucks on these items. I feel quite guilty though. Haha. Still waiting for my schoolbag. :( I'll be hunting for it, till I find the perfect one. :D

You're not perfect, neither am I.

another day passed

2008-12-20T05:53:00.000-08:00

Lol, so today went for choir, and had meeting after that at 2. Yawns. Choir was okay, and I'm beginning to like white horses. Thought that it was difficult at first, but after mastering the techniques needed for this song, I feel that it's quite easy. Mr Toh will be canceling Dravidian as he thinks we cannot make it. But it's nice! However, I think we can perform better using Kasar. That's why he stand for Kasar is so strong. Haha. But yea, can't deny, Kasar is good. But most people don't like it. I like the song, but as you know, it's difficult to sing. :) But yea, I really hope that he don't replace Dravidian with the Jap song. Omg, I like Verbum Caro (or something like that)! Remember, that draggy song. Okay, you may think that I'm crazy. But it really gives me a very.. longing feeling. Okay, crap.

As usual, when is a meeting fun and exciting? I mean, yea, I'm sure everyone agrees with me. :) Actually wanted to go with Doreen to meet Yiling to buy schoolbag (i'm wanting one), but they changed their venue late minute to Bugis hence didn;t go. It's six already, so I want home. The bus just left the moment I went to the bus inter. -.- Grr~ But nevermind, I waited. There's this old man who was behind me, queuing the same queue as me, for 292 bus. I was like, "Why is he standing so far? Am I that scary?" Nevermind, I don't care anyway. Then the moment he saw the 292 bus, he immediately rushed behind me, like, just one small step he's gonna bump into me. Like wtf? Why is he so kiasu? I know, typical Singaporean, but everyone has a comfort zone right? Alright, let me explain this. Everyone has a circle surrounding them, and that's their comfort zone. When anyone, no matter whether same gender as you or not, cross the comfort zone, you'll naturally feel uncomfortable. Stop arguing, I'm right, definitely. :) And that uncle, is like... Alright, maybe he's old and I won't blame him. But please, he scared he totally.

Two days to Trainer's Camp.

A moment like this, some people wait a lifetime.

loving wordpress

2008-12-19T05:24:00.000-08:00

I think I'm beginning to love wordpress! <3 I think it's very easy to create, simple to post, and you can add multiple pages to your own site! I think it's just simply great. Recommending wordpress.com to everyone, cos it's so simple to use, even if you don't know any simple html, it's okay! Just a few clicks and you're done! The layouts here are great too! The only disadvantage is that you can't create your own layouts. Haha~

Lol. I am really looking forward to camp! Okay, that's crazy. O-m-g?! It's like, I'm grouped not grouped with any UCP or veggies for any duty for camp! :( I think they purposely separate us. Hmph! But nvm, I still look forward to it cos I'll be able to see my friends! Haha. Lame.

I think I'm beginning to miss p-school man. I miss how much homework were given. I miss how much I watched teachers scolding students. I miss how much I love the food in the tuckshop (canteen). I miss Isabella. Lol. Stop it! I sound so corny. *shivers* Eww~ How can Brenda say those things?

I know you don't believe that.

unlucky

2008-12-18T19:01:00.000-08:00

Went to school just now at about 10am, I thought I was late. I waited for fifteen minutes, thought the rest of the section had already started sectional and went to old block second level, but no one was there. Like duh, I called HS and found out that sectional is at one. Oh gosh, why did I delete the message away? This is shit. I thought sectional will be at ten cos the previous few sectionals, including tue, fri and this mon were at ten. Crap. This feeling sucks.

Four days to Trainer's Camp.

When you walk away, I chase the shadows away.

birthday

2008-12-18T04:03:00.000-08:00

Haha. I just thought of a good present that I can give to ppl! But it requires a lot of effort. So I think I should start sooner or I'll have no time to complete it :( I'm gonna buy the sketch book on Sunday or whenever I'm going out, and start working on it :) I think it's quite meaningful. I don't know how you guys will feel if you guys get this kind of present, but I hope you guys will be pleased. :) Lol. Lameshit.

But here's what I want for Bday:
1) Nice food! Pasta Mania!!
2) Nice bag!
3) New watch!
4) New notebook, file etc!
5) Good results! I'll study hard.

It's so beautiful that makes you wanna cry.

angus, thongs and perfect snogging

2008-12-18T00:42:00.000-08:00

My rating: ★★★★★
I think this movie is great. It's not only funny, but I think it's also somewhat touching. I love the part where the mother gave Georgia a surprise party. Aww. I think it's hilarious when Georgia's rival didn't had anyone to attend her party, but only her sisters. Lol, look at her face! It really disgust me when the room designer or whatever is a gay. Like, O-M-G?! Lol. I love the movie poster! It's so nice, don't you agree? Lol. I think this movie is great and teens should watch it.

When you go away, I count the steps that you take.

bolt

2008-12-17T05:10:00.000-08:00

My rating: ★★★★
I think Bolt is okay. The dog is cute and some part quite hilarious. Esp. the part where the pigeons don't remember Bolt. Haha. However, I feel that it's a little too draggy. Like, the part when Bolt was "finding his owner" was rather long, but yeap, quite okay :) The hamsters are cute! I love the song that Miley Cyrus and that guy sang! It's nice okay. Haha. I love the part where Bolt begged for food and he succeed, and when the cat begged for food, that person was like, "Stupid Cat!" It's nice.

Do it, like you've never done before.

gallop and gallop

2008-12-17T04:04:00.000-08:00

Today's choir was okay. But yea, Dravidian was kinda screwed up. I sound weird today and I felt awkward standing beside the 'new' dsa girl. I can't teach, seriously. I'm always so nervous when teaching la. I don't know why. But nevermind. Today's farewell practice was okay. Almost all settled, except for some people who don't know the dance steps. Yeap, our main attention should be focused on singing, instead of dancing, but I think we're spending way too much time on dancing eh. Oh btw, we're not competing against the sec threes, okay? we just felt that doing singing will be very insipid and hence added some simple dance steps. Please don't accuse us of anything like, we're competitive or anything.

That's when we look within ourselves and realize how strong we truly are.

twilight

2008-12-16T04:45:00.000-08:00

My rating: ★★★★★
I've never read Twilight but seriously, it is extraordinary. You can never imagine how nice it is. I think it's extremely mysterious and fascinating when Bella was trying to know more about Edward, and when she knows that Edward is a vampire. I admire her courage too. Lol. It's like, Edward keeps struggling to resist Bella's scent cos he didn't want to hurt her. Imagine one day when he cannot resist it anymore and attack her. O-M-G. Lol. Edward's stare was scary. Lol. This movie is just great.

You'll never know, unless you find it out yourself.

yawn like a hippo

2008-12-16T00:57:00.000-08:00

Today's sectional was okay. I was shocked that we only sang two times for Dravidian. I don't know why, but it is cos we're too bad that Georgina gave up? Ok, positive mindset, we're good. Okay, just kidding. Started with Kasar today, and we kept "pushing the dumbo down the cliff" and "yawning like a hippo". Lol. Okay, so it wasn't that bad, but there's lots more room for improvement. White Horses wasn't that bad, but the 3 flat was quite difficult to get cos you'll need to remember the note.

After sectional, went to have lunch with Sheri, Lynn, Kodi and Doreen. Okay, told Sheri about the "pushing the dumbo down the cliff" and "yawning like a hippo", and she kept laughing. Like lol, that funny is it? Haha. I shouldn't have said it in the lift cos you guys were laughing so loudly! Haha. But Sheri's laughter was indeed contagious. And yeap, went to check prices of food, etc etc. And we went home! Okay, lame.

Sometimes, things are unexpected.

new class

2008-12-15T05:45:00.000-08:00

Lol. This is my first time using Wordpress to blog. I feel that it's easier using it to blog cos I can add pages to it, like, put the layouts I have created here, etc. Good right? Lol. I'm kidda bored of blogger so created this account.

Anyway, today's tournament was okay. Cousin (Jeremy), Mom, Dad and that guy (Vincent) didn't win. lol. But it's okay. They were great. Throughout the whole tournament, I was quite bored and I kept eating titbits eg. roller coaster, chezels and the cookies i made. okay. this is kinda lame lol. Okay nvm.

Btw, my appeal to 3B failed. So pls stop asking. Rather sad that I have to go to 3C. And those ppl I dislike are still there. (take note that i didn't use a strong word okay) Haha. But, seriously speaking, I don't really dislike the class. I think it would be, rather fun. Lol. Hahaha. I'm looking forward to sec 3 camp btw! I think it would be fun. Cos I can 'know more friends'. Okay, as if I'm that friendly. Okay. But I really wish to make more friends la. Cos some people say that I'm a CCA-ist person. -.- Whatever. I'm not okay.
Lol. See ya tmr ~

We won't know what'll happen tomorrow.

bowling

2008-11-24T04:26:00.000-08:00

Yay. I'm happy cos tmr is the council outing-camp.

Went to tampines safra with family, cousins and aunt to bowl. i think i didn't touch my bowling ball for abt... 8 months to a yr? lol. that's really crazy. i seriously forgot the drills (how to walk, etc etc). but when i stepped on the lane, it just came to my mind naturally. lol. i guess that's cos i started bowling when i was 6? lol. i took 8/9 pounds when i was 6. and now, i'm taking 11 pounds! haha. but yea, it was fun. but i hate my father's mutterings. it's like, so irritating. he kept telling me, "no, this is wrong you should...." like whatever. sorry for being so stubborn but i hate it when you do that. oh, btw, i should talk more abt bowling in order to prove that i really bowled since i was 6.

Bowling
Three Different Bowling Techniques, Straight, Cranker (hook) and Spinner.
• Straight - many ppl uses this method, esp. those beginners of bowling or those we just treat bowling as an entertainment. you just aim is first pin and bowl. that's basically it.
• Cranker (Hook)
There's a hook there cos i love to call it hook. A cranker is a bowler who strives to generate revolutions using a cupped wrist and a bent elbow or muscled armswing. The term, cranking, is used to describe the style of release that crankers do. Many crankers throw their shots from "coast to coast" -- meaning that they start from one side of the lane, aim near the gutter (the "drain") on the other side, and let the ball hook back from the dry edges of the oil pattern.
watch a video here.
Erm, basically, hook means we will start to bowl the ball from either the very right or left side of the lane, near the gutter, and let the ball "hook" to the center point of the pins.
• Spinner
Obviously, from the name, it means that the bowler will spin the ball, using one hand and deliver the ball. just like this.
watch video here.

Haha. Try guessing which one do i use. Okay, actually i know all.
But I'm a cranker. Haha. Being a cranker is fun cos it just give us the kind of surprise feeling that we don't get like, the ball will either go gutter, or hit the pins. Audiences will also shout "ahhh..." when the ball almost fell into the gutter. :) Haha. Wanna learn bowling, call me to teach you. :)

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Lol. enough of bowling. okay, went to grandma house after that to celebrate her bday. my aunt hamsters are simply cute! Aww...

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY...

birthday meaning

2008-11-22T05:08:00.000-08:00

JANUARY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, Shy and Humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt and takes long to recover.

AUGUST
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive ( unless you are refering to my nose haha ) but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful. Secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. One of a kind. Innocent, shy and childish. Proud of yourself. Little tomboy-ish. X-ray eyes. Always smile. Loves freedom. Revengeful. Get jealous easily. Selfish. Likes to hear nice things. Likes to have fame and reputations. Spendthrift.

DECEMBER
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

This is serious damn true la.

sotd

2008-11-21T03:12:00.000-08:00

I really hate the fact that SOTD of blogskins.com is selected by the following two criterias :

• many downloads (excuse me, ppl can just self-download. i don't believe that ppl nowadays are so innocent and honest. including myself had done that; i've deleted the skin immediately after testing it out)

• cannot be less than 5 stars (what crap is this? some stupid idiots can just come to your skin, rate it 4.5 stars and byebye, there goes your sotd and five-star rating. and btw, it doesn't mean than a 5-star skin is a good skin. it also doesn't mean that a 4.5-star skin is bad okay)

like how dumb? ok, i'm saying this not because i want an sotd, but just justifying all these things. :) i think i'll probably not skin there anymore.

but ps, my account is still valid, in case ppl still like them :)

birthday

2008-11-13T19:16:00.000-08:00

What I Want for Birthday
this is extremely stupid cos my birthday is like 3 months away? lol. but nvm.

19th Feb 2009, 12am, thurs

Many many many bday messages :X lol.
firstly, i will count how many ppl actually remembered my bday. lol. well, i won't blame you if you didn't message me at this time, but the next day :)

20th Feb 2009, fri

1) School - Everything will turn out as I expected, fun, joy and laughter. lol. It's 3C, remember, no longer 2A :) :X (sorry)

2) It's a friday, so there's choir! So I don't think I can celebrate my birthday on that day cos choir ends at 5+ that day, I think if I'm not wrong. Probably celebrate the next day (sat) PS: Birthday presents! (lol)

21st Feb 2009, sat

1) Celebrate remember a year in the life of friends! lol. I hope that can celebrate with ucp and veggies :) [but the sad thing is, the next day is doreen's bday leh, they'll probably celebrate with her] nvm. i'll celebrate with veggies, at least.

2) Celebrate with family! We'll definitely have dinner together. Idk if we're going out, but, yea, it would be great!

Last but not least,

Birthday Cravings

1) Chocolate/Oreo/IceCream Cake with no raisins (?!), blueberry, or whatever berries. (strawberries as decorations is okay) - no offense to people who love berries.

2) Nice nice food. Lol. Sakae? Sakura Buffet? Jack's Place? lol. I really want these man. :X

3) Birthday Presents! (don't faint cos here's a list of things i want)

•New MP3 headphone.

Actually, that's basically it. I'm content with what I have now :) L-O-L.

examination

2008-11-13T19:08:00.000-08:00

New school semester:

During the first week:

During the second week:

Before the mid-year exams:

During the mid-year exams:

After the mid-year exams:

Before the end-of-year exams:

Once you know the end-of-year exams schedule:

7 days before the end-of-year exams:

6 days before the end-of-year exams:

5 days before the end-of-year exams:

4 days before the end-of-year exams:

3 days before the end-of-year exams:

2 days before the end-of-year exams:

1 day before the end-of-year exams:

The night before the end-of-year exams:

1 hour before the end-of-year exams:

During the end-of-year exams:

The moment you walk out of the exam hall:

After the end-of-year exams, during the holidays:

apologizing

2008-11-10T17:58:00.000-08:00

Apologizing and Accepting

Human beings like us make mistakes.
and after making them, we're suppose to apologize, should't we?

Apologizing
A simple 'sorry' is difficult to come out from our mouths, trust me. It's so difficult that you can't control your emotions.
That's a real and sincere 'sorry'.

When 'sorry' comes out of your mouth as easy as saying a 'thank you', then, you'll have to self-reflect on yourself. Either you said 'sorry' easily (too many times that you've gotten sick of it), or, you're not sincere enough.

Accepting
But sometimes, a 'sorry' is a little too late. One may find it hard to accept it as we're disheartened. When it comes to this stage, there's no way that a person will change the mind about the "mistaker", unless there's miracles.

I think that apologizing seem to be so easy for you that you don't mind saying it a thousand times.